Behold the stirring has begun


The vultures fly above me


My Lord



It is time to build the biggest bonfire

The vultures did eat.


Maybe I almost died.


However I am somehow still alive.



I saw the vastness of the demonic army




I said woe is us, for we stand no chance against the vipers



RedExorcist is powerless.
Especially against the armies.




We are merely food for the demons.



Save us

My mother's request

She asked me to change a habit of mine today.

She asked me to give up something in my life that she genuinely was concerned about.


Without saying any Christian stuff, I feel like she was telling me to repent.




My habit... My lovely habit. Or should I say the habit that I love?




My mother, who I know cares about me.

My wife also,

My father said the same thing.




To give it up.

I have all the defenses in the world. I have all the excuses to justify my stubbornness.




My mother who is still alive, and who knows for how long.

She had a real legit convo with me today.




My mother told me to stop.

The belief in ateez

Angel technologies.

The reason why humans cannot obey their parents is because of...


Angel technologies.



Under most circumstances, we listen to the advise of our parents unless there is

ANGEL TECHNOLOGIES



These are the devices of rebellion that the devil installs in your mind.




I believe that the reason why I can't stop is because I believe I have stumbled upon

Angel technologies




Angel demon and man

Page one

I never grew since my first post.

I never became better.

I never became holier.

My account was created Dec 2021


Remember me, lord?

Shining light

You all shine my loves.

But my light is not among you.


For the lord has taught me that some things ought to be covered

And some displayed.



I will not display myself.


If the thoughts of my mind and


If it's okay with you.



I will remain silent

A man's silence.




I observed that a certain main was silent.


And he was not me.


I observed other men too, and they too were silent.


Men who had more knowledge than I.

Men who were older than me.


Men can live up to hundred years now.


These men kept silent


Past few years.



They uttered not their words.






Men as such, you ought to speak before i

My mouth will remain closed until wisdom opens her mouth.

Silence in heaven for thirty minutes

I remember


When I made you cry


That wasn't me



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The guy who disappointed you
And the guy who disappointed myself.

How can I hurt someone I love so much?


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I love you, you know I do.
I love my family.

Yet what I want to do, I don't do.


I was given chances to do the right thing.

I had ample time to decide to be a good person.



But I sabatoge

I was driving home.



I was driving home and I knew what I would do.

I could feel the anger in the steering wheel.



We sat in the car and I had moments of self control.


I weaved in and out of self control.




To be honest, maybe I shouldn't have driven home.



I knew I was angry.


Why did I go home with the idea that I might be able to calmly express my anger?





I should have stayed away.



Anger is a hot fire that cannot be controlled.




If I am angry and I am going to interact with someone who I am angry with, what did i think was going to happen?


Sin.



Teach me how to love.

I love this person so deeply but I fumble in my expression




I declare that I love this person.

But at the same time, my flesh is weak.


How to show care and kindness and not err.


How to never disappoint again.



I am unable to keep my feet from slipping.


I never want to do it again.


Lord, will you please help me.


My flesh is so utterly weak.


Lust, anger, envy, all kinds of evil and compulsions.




I wish to follow after the Spirit.

Yet, why do I stumble my Lord?