dear diary

thought box . go

first thoughts.

thought about buying a subscription or something to the website.

so i can get a star in my name.

but mainly because i want to be able to retrieve my account if anything bad happens.

only fear is that i will have to link my credit card.

not sure what to do.

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i think about people like roneye and alphaofalphas

they actually have their real picture in there profiles.

it makes me wonder.

whats the advantages of such levels of transparency? or is it just part of their natural behavior?

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anonymity.

that is the barrier between your avatar and your soul.

who you are. who you aren't.

i don't think that needs to be unsheathed,

Blog post #2
Title: Thanks

Thank you for subscribing to my news letter. I finally made my shop. Check the link in my signature and give me a nice bump! Going to sleep now. And yea, I ended up buying the star beside my name. Talk to you soon!

I hope my shop goes well!

Blog post #3
Title: Anger

Thanks for views guys. I am surprise I have 64 views (probably most of them are from myself? Idk how the website calculates it)

Today's topic is anger. I feel angry and not sure why. Usually am more chilled. I posted in the GC section today about my feelings.

I think it could be a combination of addiction to jsp

secondary to lack of stimulation (stir crazy)

and loneliness

== which leads to increased trolling or forum aggression

theres also a compulsive factor to it (because it provides attention and a form of stimulation not available in real life)

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But some of that anger isn't sociological or caused by these factors.

Some of that anger is personal too. Certain people I don't like. Why does this person trigger me?

Who did this stranger remind me of and why do I dislike them?

Post blog #4

Title: Anger manifested

I've finally reached 50 post count per day (PCPD)

To be honest, I wasn't even watching the PCPD for a while. It was JahIthBear that mentioned to me for reaching 50.

Today in real life I did something pretty uncool.

I became angry at someone and almost hurt them (a complete stranger).

What has JSP done to me?

Or is it have nothing to do with JSP?

Sorry to that person. And Sorry to God. And Sorry to my fellow JSP'ers.

I need to grow up. Forgive me God.

the color of smoke.

a haze that is transparent

a birth of something that was already alive

a song for angels

a performance for an empty room.

worship is performance

for the invisible god

This post was edited by redExorcist on Feb 10 2022 11:19pm

Blogpost #6

six is an interesting number

seven is the number of completion

numerology. blah blah blah...

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that's not the point of today's post.

i made a friend today.

that gives me joy

blog 7

on the seventh day, the bible says He rested.

What happened to the blog?

blog 8

stand still and wait,,

sometimes the fog will lift

and your path will clear

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its better to stand still

than to walk backwards