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Oct 2 2022 05:22pm
A meaningless energy.

Hate
Resentment


Trying to draw people's attention by being annoying.


Like me.



That woman who tried to annoy me today was just like me.



I say things and I sometimes have the last word just because I want attention.



A meaningless energy. A craving


Just utterly meaningless
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Oct 3 2022 05:26pm
lability

post coital

maybe this is what regular people feel when they are regularly involved with this kind of stuff



attachment = anger
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Oct 7 2022 08:47pm
Fomo

Fear of missing out


Usually don't feel this way.



Kinda got caught up in the forums lately, looking at the ladder prices


People selling vex rune for 2k...


Whatever.




I felt like playing too.

Maybe I'll play for the next ladder.


Neah no.




Its just a moment of weakness.



There's much to be done.



Even doing nothing is more productive than gaming.



When I'm lying on the floor like this in the dark,
I am resting.


Tomorrow the boards go down.


I still have to prepare for my certification course.
I still have to prepare for my competence thing


I still gotta do a lot of things around the house.



Also we know people like chrismiller or Maxmiller gonna screw up the economy anyway.



Well I guess it does kinda suck that I can't play. I'm happy for those who can sell tals armor for 4k fg


Because these people are taking their own time off to play.



I don't have that luxury.


Some people make 200 dollars a day
Some people make 200 dollars an hour





Time in the end


I guess playing diablo is a good way to spend your time


Just like how a few Christmases ago I watched perfect blue with my wife



And Sao and Tokyo godfathers.




However you chose to spend your time

1) do it with God in mind
2) don't regret it
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Oct 9 2022 03:07pm
Some fatigue

Day is still young





Frustrating that I have work tomorrow though.




My package is also due.




I might


Be able to get through this




But I need strength

Edit;

God please give me a new wind to sail upon

In Jesus name, amen

This post was edited by redExorcist on Oct 9 2022 03:08pm
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Oct 9 2022 09:45pm
My two colleagues


The first one i will call Waldo.
Waldo is a talebarer.
He eats lunch everyday with Gerald.




On the surface they seem like good friends.



But when Gerald wasn't around, Waldo undermined him by saying "he's working way too much, he keeps making mistakes"



Now, what Waldo said may have been true, but there was no reason to talk about Gerald like that in the open.

Waldo is a tale barer. At any opportunity he will undermine anyone, even those who appear to be his best friends. He usually does this when that person isn't around.

Why does he do this? Insecurity? Pride? The desire to be the top? A jealous spirit?



++++


Gerald on the other hand... He cannot be trusted. He has a history of sharing screenshots of private conversations with a larger group chat. And he has also done this to me.

Gerald also videotapes people without their consent. He videotaped one of our colleagues as she was complaining. She didn't know she was being filmed.

Gerald also smokes a lot of weed. And he probably pops pills too. His eyes are gone and react sluggishly to light. He has a lag before he responds to any question or conversation.


Gerald is involved with sorceries and he doesn't even know it.

His greatest strength that he has acquired from his weed is a certain numbness, fearlessness, and lack of inhibitions. It gives him great audacity to do things that other people wouldn't. This makes Gerald extremely dangerous under certain circumstances.




Both are misguided but happen to be friends.
Waldo is unloyal. He is selfish. Immature. Childish. And he always needs to be number one, the center of attention. In order to maintain what he believes is dominance, he must continue to belittle others, and undermine everyone around him.




Common element between Gerald and Waldo. They both probably use drugs. They both probably are deeply entrenched in pornography and fornication and lust.


Waldo has an issue with betting and gambling with sports and stocks.



Between the two, Waldo seems to be the more dominant one.

But Gerald seems to be the more dangerous one because he lacks inhibition. He can easily overdose and make mistakes.


They both, together can help each other. But they need to be kind to each other.
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Oct 10 2022 03:11pm
Imperfect sky

Perfection is unnatural
That's a good way to explain away failure.

I did half the job imperfectly.

At least I can finish the other half "perfectly"


Good.

.

We will have two points of comparison.


Are you afraid?

No because it was meant to be this way. The first part of the project I did not use "the tool"
Second part of the project I will use "the tool"


The first part was meant to contrast against the second part.



Imperfect "natural" versus the other.




I have no choice but to continue forward. I didn't get to where I was by means of perfection.


If I can close off the last few planks and call it, it's done.

Pens down. Who cares about perfect grammar and all that?




++ yet what I did today?

Perfection.
Natural.
Wood.

Will it work or not?


Part 2;


S e a S o n s.
Proof that failure is possible? I didn't need this proof. Proof that autumn produces autumn leaves? I didn't need this proof. Failure is unnecessary and I can not by any means justify sin.


No one can.


A slap on the wrist
A cut on the wrist
A nail on the wrist


Condemnation perches around me like devils waiting for permission
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Oct 10 2022 03:17pm
Demon's without
Demons within
Demon syringe



One, in no particular order: failure

Loss

Fear

Grief

Confusion



Succumbment



Breached walls. Highways for the devils.



Doors for the devil. With a red carpet of boredom. With the ushers of loneliness.



A stagnant pond, stirred by sorcery




A painting with no movement
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Oct 10 2022 03:24pm
Night descends

I want to go home. I don't feel comfortable here anymore.


I feel afraid. I need a hug from my wife. I need someone to tell me everything's going to be okay. I need to push a button to reset.

I wish I could undo what happend. How far back would I go?




How can you draw without an eraser? Write without editing?



My plane got shot down by a bullet of boredom


When the wings cease to enjoy flight, the wind will rest
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Oct 10 2022 03:37pm
Seven

Depression
Reluctance
Guilt shame
Isolation
Withdrawing

Holes and unfilled gaps
Corrosion*

Hate
Incontinence

An empty chamber



A wounded animal that builds a nest to hide.

A hamster in tinted glass

I have signed my own eclipse

Edit*

This post was edited by redExorcist on Oct 10 2022 03:46pm
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Oct 10 2022 03:39pm
Turmoil
Torrent
Chaos
Resistance

A stirring

Anger and crashing waves.


I understand why the psalmist could not stop writing. Pain is a tumultuous flow

Quick

And suddenly. Disperse
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