Working a lot over Christmas
Still taking drugs

Seeing a different girl now, she’s really nice...not sure how it will all go.

Feeling average

Been a full year and I still took drugs on New Years etc. I think on New Year’s Eve eve I got alcohol poisoning from the amount I drank. I literally couldn’t hold anything down on NYE and vomited ~30 times. The girl I’ve been seeing stuck by me but I felt bad.

Quite disheartening

This post was edited by bjones9 on Jan 2 2019 09:54am

Don't do drugs

Seriously though, you got me on facebook and on here if you need me bish

Thanks my friend ❣️

I’ve been seeing another girl and she really, really likes me. I like her too but not sure I feel the same way. We’ve become close and it scared me so I pulled back on it and kind of broke it off with her. I then had the other girl that I worked with (who I wanted to date) over and we mucked around but she didn’t want anything more so I told her to leave.

I went to a music festival and did a fair few drugs. After driving home
I felt down and lonely so had the “new girl” come over and we are talking again...I do like her but I’m certainly not as into her as the previous girl that I work with.

This is a picture of me before the festival. One of, if not my favourite photo of me where I am actually smiling. I’m not exactly happy but I’m also not sad. Just numb again lately.

Was meant to just go out for dinner but ended up having a big Friday night and didn’t go to bed until 7am. Woke up around midday Saturday and lazed around with the girl I’m seeing doing nothing - basically a waste of a day.

Woke up Sunday and went to the gym and beach etc then went out for “a few beers”. Went to a club after and did some drugs then went back to girls house with a few people and ended up taking 2 sleeping tablets from Thailand. They knocked me out until 1pm Monday then I drove home (shouldn’t have) ate and then passed out again until 8pm. I woke up today still feeling groggy and dizzy but gym’d and beached and ate well.

Basically lost 2 days this week due to not being functionable...

I go back to work this Monday, hopefully it puts me in routine again...

What core drugs are you taking though mate? Mainly uppers like Coke and E?

Them, mdma, acid

Do you think it's the routine, or do you think it's addiction? Do you withdrawl without them?

I think it’s an addiction to the routine of having fun. I don’t crave anything during the week. I just cannot stand laying around at home doing nothing. Not to sound arrogant but I’m a fairly popular guy with a lot of different friend groups so I have something on literally every weekend..

I know man, but as awkward as it is to say this, you probably need new friends, who don't have those hobbies. People you would be embarrassed to take stuff around.