Been constantly using drugs every weekend. This one is the first time I’ve felt bad / coming down about it for a while. I think it’s due to not sleeping for 40+ hours.
I’ve moved stores for work and it’s been a challenge, one which I’ve enjoted. I thought moving stores would help with the drug use but it hasn’t. The first weekend I was there I went out, didn’t go to bed and went to work for 10 hours.
I’ve also spent a LOT of money. I would imagine it would be around the $25,000 mark since the start of the year. Funny to think what I could have done with that money, oh well.
I’ve met a girl but feel like I don’t want a relationship. She is really, really in to me and it scares me. I don’t want to hurt her nor be hurt again. I sometimes push her away and have even had sex with others (we haven’t said we are exclusive) but I still feel bad. I haven’t told anyone this.
Otherwise I’m feeling healthy. I’ve put on the 12-13kg I lost over December / January and am fit and strong again.