Her and my parents have been neighbors for 12 years ongoing. We went all through high school together and we were engaged for 5 years until about 2 months ago. I'm bipolar schizophrenic and she has reactive attachment disorder. I bought her a car for her job, replaced tons of parts and put in all my best stereo equipment which pounds harder than anyone else I've heard. I was spending all our money driving her car around in the AM. I was having manic episodes threatening to drink bleach and keep it with me wherever I go so I could drink it at any time. Then I had a manic episode and threw a photocopied piece of paper signed by myself and the landlord in her face that said I'm moving out in a month and a half, she looks at it and then me and says you don't love me so I look at her and say you never loved me and slam the door. Went to work, called before I got off to tell the landlord to rip up what I had signed, and when I got home from work all her stuff was gone except her dildo in the closest and a bottle of bleach on the counter, as in I wont be needing this and here you go drink bleach IDGAF. I proceed to go into an extreme manic state, I did not eat or sleep for 48 hours+ So I'm leaving her handwritten notes on the passenger seat of her car in the AM because the window was previously smashed by some thief, calling her and leaving her messages and I showed up at her work a couple of times, found her parked at a gas station before work, get out to talk to her and she keeps telling me it wont change anything, she's in the driver's seat and just started the car I ask her what about the dress? because the dress for the wedding had been bought already and she looks at me with unrelenting fury in her eyes and says we sold the dress in a deep demonic voice and then peels the f out of there in reserve, I run back to my car and chase her downtown, she goes to her sisters place and her sister is screaming at me about what an abusive a**hole I am, the whole time I'm just apologizing about everything, ended up being admitted to the hospital for a while for calling 911 saying I want to kill myself. She took that car I bought because it's in her name and left me with nothing but about 20k in debt.

That's life for ya!
I want to fucking kill myself hooray!
But I deserve it tee hee!
WHAT THE FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU


Oh yeah about 1 month after she left I sent a bunch of facebook messages to her mother saying I'm bipolar sczhiophenic and writing really strange things because I had mania at the time. What the fuck am I doing lol

This post was edited by Mackenzie_1992 on Aug 21 2018 02:38am

You need a treatment for your disorder.
Do you take a treatment?

You should certainly stay at the hospital for a while.



This post was edited by Chevaucheur on Aug 21 2018 02:45am

I tried a bunch of medications such as clozapine in the past but they just make me feel like a zombie and make me want to kill myself even more

You need to heal yourself in my opinion.
Are you right handed, left handed, or counter-lateralized (dominant hand on one side and dominant foot on the other side)?

Which foot do you use the most?

This post was edited by Chevaucheur on Aug 21 2018 02:53am

right handed and right footed I guess
Im an atheist and im not a practicant

I'll add that my biological father has this disorder, I've never seen him in my life but he's out there somewhere. He slashed my moms tires and then he cut her brake lines and he still owes her all of child support to the sum of about $75,000. I heard that he is a pimp now. I warned her about it many times over the years, that I was worried I would get it, well I guess I always had it but I was at the worst when she left. Oh well life goes on I suppose.

This post was edited by Mackenzie_1992 on Aug 21 2018 03:14am

What about your feet?
When you ride a scooter, what foot do you put on the scooter?

I need to know you a bit before I can help you.

Do you believe in God?
What is your religion?
Are you a practicant?

This post was edited by Chevaucheur on Aug 21 2018 02:58am

same

This won’t end well

disagree. OP will talk to chev for a while and feel comparatively normal.

Or chev will prescribe undilute battery acid taken twice daily