So for anyone who might know me or might not know me i been gone for roughly 5+ years if not longer and i went on a major adventure during this time.
I ended up making friends with a tun of youtubers, music creators, and some people from hollywood but i dont want to touch base on that specifically at this moment.
As of now from when i left jsp i went on a journey of self fulfillment during a deep depression i was dealing with, i choose to try to make peace with myself by searching out many friends on all vocal platforms and discord happened to be one of my favorite's. I meet a guy i fell in love with that wanted nothing to do with me that was the most amazing man i ever meet, like he was buff, cool as heck, talented in every way possible (youtube, music, school, work) and he worked out a tun. absolute chad of a man. anyways he only wanted to be fwb so currently he is still a friend of mine however we have never physically hooked up because of this. after being cast out of his community for a misunderstanding (me and him are still friends and still talk and hang out) i found my lovely girlfriend and currently living together. i decided to start school in medicine and stop modeling as much and focus my time on helping others and not just myself. is it wrong of me since my girlfriend is open to being polly to want to have that guy in my life too? im pretty sure i either have love or crazy lust for this man. i have no idea to approach this because he would not like me talking about a single thing about him so i can only be vague to explain them. this guy expresses physical interest over the past 6-7 years but has never expressed wanting something from me other then that. keep in mind we have never meet irl but have been on video multiple times to hang out together and spent a tun of time together. so he's also gone threw a lot from woman who have hurt him and im unsure if that may play a role in why he doesn't want to commit to someone also doesn't like the idea of anything online. also hes also helping me with school stuff...
So how would you all handle this? i been just going day to day. he knows how i feel and i know how he feels already. what should i do in this? all ive been doing so far is just going day by day chatting with him and enjoying the company of my girlfriend.