im going crazy

you know when you just accept that you going to be alone forever and that goes so deep inside your head it becomes real and you believe it so much it becomes true even though its not.

and then when you start to get feelings for a girl your brain starts to re wire itself and you go crazy.

shes been hinting to me for years that we would be good together...... and yet i just ignore it and try not to think about it

why cant i just let me feelings and emotions out and love her.... i want to but i wont let myself

Because you drink your self into oblivion every fuckingn day

You aren’t gratitious...... he would never say that


And ya I do but so does everyone else in my city.... I actually think I’m doing great when I compare to everyone I know


And this ain’t got to do with drinking..... maybe my marijuana use bit not my drinking

This post was edited by DALTONG on Mar 23 2018 01:43am

loneliness can kill you before you officially die. When you become independent of drugs and humans, then it will be difficult to feel lonely. Attachments can destroy you.

I don't know what you are going through but I want to be friendly

wants something and doesn't even try to get it lul what a geek

Hmmmm a geek?

How does not having confidence or not knowing what I want make me a geek?

send 100fg and i'll tell you

because you have massive emotional barriers build to protect yourself. same reason you dont listen when ppl tell you what's wrong (not making fun it's true!)

people telling me whats wrong with me

ya cuz they know by just reading my posts

do you have a brain?

im not asking for advice or going to take advice from people here lol... ill see a psychiatrist if i want advice


the barrier part is true tho

This post was edited by DALTONG on Mar 23 2018 06:39pm