No I don't think that's true. Without any legitimate testing or control for other factors you have likely confused Jesus for a natural explanation.
Since you confessed to practically eating drugs I don't think you are capable to diagnose yourself much less understand what it is you are saying. Go and get the help you need instead of relying on magical explanations.
Actually, what Jesus says in the Gospels in the truth.
He said specifically, 'Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.' In addition to this, here are these passages that actually touch on the very darkness that was in my own life then:
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved. He that believeth on him is not condemned: but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God. And this is the condemnation, that
light is come into the world, and men loved
darkness rather than light, because their
deeds were evil. For every one
that doeth evil hateth the light, neither cometh to
the light, lest his
deeds should be
reproved. But he that
doeth truth cometh to
the light, that his deeds may be
made manifest, that they are wrought in God.
Ephesians 1:7 in the King James Version (KJV). It states: "In whom we have
redemption through
his blood, the
forgiveness of sins, according to the riches of his grace;"
Acts 3:19-26
King James Version
19 Repent ye therefore, and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out, when the times of refreshing shall come from the presence of the Lord.
20 And he shall send Jesus Christ, which before was preached unto you:
21 Whom the heaven must receive until the times of restitution of all things, which God hath spoken by the mouth of all his holy prophets since the world began.
22 For Moses truly said unto the fathers, A prophet shall the Lord your God raise up unto you of your brethren, like unto me; him shall ye hear in all things whatsoever he shall say unto you.
23 And it shall come to pass, that every soul, which will not hear that prophet, shall be destroyed from among the people.
24 Yea, and all the prophets from Samuel and those that follow after, as many as have spoken, have likewise foretold of these days.
25 Ye are the children of the prophets, and of the covenant which God made with our fathers, saying unto Abraham, And in thy seed shall all the kindreds of the earth be blessed.
26 Unto you first God, having raised up
his Son Jesus, sent him to bless you, in turning away every one of you from his
iniquities.
It is a blessing from God to be reproved for our ways, which allows Him to guide us along His paths into redemption through the forgiveness of our sins.
In the King James Version (KJV), 1 John 1:9 states:"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."