I agreee


But if what I'm missing is love . then maybe that's what I need


I completely agree what what u said and that's exactly how I think like I need to make myself as perfect as possible before I find someone that can match my energy

But...

What if I have refined myself so much that the only thing that going to help me is love

This post was edited by DALTONG on Apr 7 2026 11:55pm

You guys can always reach out to me. Im almost 6 years clean from damn near every drug under the sun and now work as a rehabilitation aide in a sober living home with 16 guys / peer support specialist for them and for people working a recovery program in my community and for people in crisis mode. I have 15 years of experience from living the street life as a junkie and a drug dealer, to trying to get sober in that time. I’ve accomplished some of the hardest treatment facilities in the country, one including a marine corp boot camp one. I’ve learned so many different things and am very effective in helping people struggling with substance use disorder and all that it comes with. I’m always expanding my knowledge on how I can better help people like us, even people who don’t use and are just having a hard time mentally. I was the worst of the worst. I use to IV use 5grams of heroin a day as my primary drug of choice. I’ve been on probation since I was 20 and and won’t be complete until 2044. Luckily since I’ve been a success story, I’m going to be discharging in 3-4 years if I keep it up, which I will. I have 6 felonies. If I can do it, you can do it too. Life is good now.

I love animals but Im kind of a heartless cocksucker


I'm hard as fuck if you haven't noticed and I don't want a fucking dog


I'd rather have a cat that isn't so needy

Exactly


I can take care of my finances because that's #1 priority


But like my dishes in my sink is rather just throw in the trash than do them because I'm so fucked


I can't take care of an animal


I mean I could but.... I won't take on that responsibility


I'd rather take care of a human that I love and that loves me and we can take care of eachother

This post was edited by DALTONG on Apr 7 2026 11:59pm

I care more about my worst enemies life than I ever could for an animal

Dude I help all my friends and give them advice


But when I'm here


I have nobody. And I'm not about to talk to my parents about my mental issues


I loved with them until I was 25...

If anything I would only talk to my mom... My dad dosent understand depression... And he's just like me but he 66 and stubborn


He don't even understand what depression or what mental health even is

This post was edited by DALTONG on Apr 8 2026 12:04am

That's why is rather have a cat

And cats are kinda like most woman so is rather have a women that I like that just like me almost as much as I like her

I'm really opposite
I can't even kill insects
I hate humans

Do you use with these “friends”? One thing that helped me stop looking at depression as such a negative thing was to start looking at it as a gift and understand it’s a time for deep introspection to really find out who I am. Unbearable at times? Mosttttt fucking definitely but, once you start getting an insightful glimmer here and there into the deep recesses of your psyche, it becomes the concept of following the white rabbit. You literally begin to unlock parts of you that either were always dormant or have become dormant through your own suppressions. You ever heard about shadow work?

This post was edited by Abyzma on Apr 8 2026 12:08am

Use that money to put yourself into a 6 month rehab