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#1
Apr 7 2026 10:16pm
So ya u all know I'm a fucking peice of shit


I've relapsed twice


I hate myself and want to die


Can't explain why


I'm worth about 1 mil USD and I don't wanna live anymore


Yes dear diary... Don't even comment unless u have been where I am now... Which most of you pussies have never been


I think it's love that I'm missing in my life


I'm scared to love someone.... Last person I was with loved me but I didn't love them.

This post was edited by DALTONG on Apr 7 2026 10:21pm
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Apr 7 2026 10:31pm
Quote (DALTONG @ 8 Apr 2026 00:16)
\I think it's love that I'm missing in my life.


I am no therapist and online is not the space to seek advice. With that in mind and if you have the time due to your wealth and/or health, spend the next 12 months or more volunteering at a local soup kitchen or where they hand out groceries to families who are on living poor wages. If your heart does not go through a metamorphosis, a kind of recalibration which helps attract the right love, then I can only hope that you find the path that works for you to find someone that balances you and that you do it soon. :hug:
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Apr 7 2026 10:34pm
Quote (UAPtictac @ Apr 7 2026 10:31pm)
I am no therapist and online is not the space to seek advice. With that in mind and if you have the time due to your wealth and/or health, spend the next 12 months or more volunteering at a local soup kitchen or where they hand out groceries to families who are on living poor wages. If your heart does not go through a metamorphosis, a kind of recalibration which helps attract the right love, then I can only hope that you find the path that works for you to find someone that balances you and that you do it soon. :hug:


Thank you


I been telling myself I need to volunteer


But at this point I have no ambition or energy to do anything


I feel like I'm already dead and gone

This post was edited by DALTONG on Apr 7 2026 10:35pm
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Apr 7 2026 10:37pm
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Thank you


I been telling myself I need to volunteer


But at this point I have no ambition or energy to do anything


Where you are now may be the best time to say "f**k it!" and just do it. Let a community of people at these humanitarian spaces be a gentle guide. Just say "F**k. I am going to do it." And, do it. Again, not judging if you do nothing. You are the driver of your moments. :hug:
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Apr 7 2026 10:38pm
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Where you are now may be the best time to say "f**k it!" and just do it. Let a community of people at these humanitarian spaces be a gentle guide. Just say "F**k. I am going to do it." And, do it. Again, not judging if you do nothing. You are the driver of your moments. :hug:


First I'm gona drink this Bottle until I puke


And I'm gona not eat anything today at all and maybe not tomorrow either

I wanna starve myself as long as I can
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Apr 7 2026 10:40pm
Quote (UAPtictac @ Apr 7 2026 10:37pm)
Where you are now may be the best time to say "f**k it!" and just do it. Let a community of people at these humanitarian spaces be a gentle guide. Just say "F**k. I am going to do it." And, do it. Again, not judging if you do nothing. You are the driver of your moments. :hug:


Honestly thank you for your input


I'm too much of a degenerate piece of shit right now


I won't forget what you said though. I am still sharp
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#7
Apr 7 2026 10:46pm
You can't love someone unless you love yourself. You're miserable and any partner you have will be miserable as well.

You need to work on yourself. Having a girlfriend or whatever won't fix that.
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#8
Apr 7 2026 10:47pm
I'm there right now
Made a post about it a week ago
Mom died
Gf died
All my cats died
Lost my car

All within months. Just drowning in grief and suicidal ideation since
I hate myself as well
No one texts me. Says good morning. Good night. I'm completely alone. I'll never want another gf. Lost too much that isn't replaceable

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Apr 7 2026 10:56pm
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I'm there right now
Made a post about it a week ago
Mom died
Gf died
All my cats died
Lost my car

All within months. Just drowning in grief and suicidal ideation since
I hate myself as well
No one texts me. Says good morning. Good night. I'm completely alone. I'll never want another gf. Lost too much that isn't replaceable


Fuck..


Are you Canadian . I'll email you money right now


But that won't help... Maybe a tiny bit
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#10
Apr 7 2026 10:57pm
relapse is part of the game. pretty much have to cut everyone off and change ur entire life. i thought i could just quit and keep doing the shit i was doin it worked until it didnt
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