I am writing something to ask for help. I will post the mostly un-redacted version of it below in search of feedback. Thank you.

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Dear sir or madam:

I am writing this letter to you as a plea for help. I am a Canadian citizen, who has strong reasons to believe she is being persecuted. I have been suffering extreme and unremitting persecution by a powerful entity which I cannot identify. However, based on the scope of the campaign against me, and the nature of remarks I made publicly, I tentatively conclude that this entity could be the state intelligence apparatus of Canada. Owing to this persecution, I am now a certified mental patient under British Columbia's mental health act. My goals for writing this letter are two-fold: 1. To clear my name as a schizophrenic mental patient; and 2. to rescue my missing friend William (more about this later).


Below I will give a complete account of what has been happening to me. I will also include my real life identity and contact information at the bottom of the letter, so that interested parties can contact me, and have me corroborate the many claims I will be making here in this letter. Please keep in mind the content of said letter is of an overwhelmingly testimonial nature, I only have a very limited amount of verifiable evidence. That said, I affirm, sincerely and to the best of my knowledge, that the following personal account is all true.


It all started in 2000s, back in the early days of internet online forums. I had, and still do, a very active life online. I spend a very large amount of time online. I would join forums and spend large amounts of time talking to people. On a particular computer gaming forum that I was a poster of, I said a few things. I talked about and implicated the highly protected group, Jews. I also said a few other highly contentious things (to say the least). The end result was that I became a high-profile individual, in whom a lot of people took interest. I did not know at the time, but some of them hacked into my computers and started to follow me around online. This was probably also when I first became a person of interest, to the entity persecuting me. Whoever this entity might be, I will call it the entity from now on, for simplicity's sake.


I said I only have a suspicion about the identity of the entity, this is true. However, I do have one very important piece of hard evidence. I know the name of one person, who hacked into my computer and let me know about it in real life. Keep in mind that I have no proof of his connection to any organization, but I know basic details about him, that he is a real person, and most importantly, he hacked into my computer and had watched me for an unknown period of time. I believe that he was aware of the things I said online in early 2000s on the computer gaming forum and that this formed his motivation in watching me. This individual went by the name of M*ke Foulds (or M*ke Fould. It's been a really long time, I can't remember the exact ending of his last name but everything else is correct).


M*ke Fould/Foulds' hacking of my computer frightened me into having my first breakdown and encounter with the mental health establishment. I first met him at training sessions at the then eBay call centre in North Burnaby, BC, Canada, back in 2006. He sat next to me in the training classes, and he would murmur things loudly enough just for me to hear, to let me know that he hacked into my computer and knew about my every move online. This job at eBay was through an advertisement posted on Craigslist (more about this later). M*ke Fould/Foulds was about 5 foot 8, White, light hair and eyes, he went to the University of Fraser Valley, and last I know, resided in the town of Abbotsford, BC, Canada. Through the artwork that we were asked to complete in our training classes, I learned that he was a few years younger than me, and was probably born in late June to early July (if his artwork was to be believed).



There was another woman whom I also suspect of being connected to the entity, though again, I have no proof. She was one of the trainers at eBay, her name was Sandra, I do not know her last name. She was about 5 foot 7, blond hair and blue eyed, ample-bosomed, and quite attractive. I believe she had an Eastern European immigrant background, though she spoke good English. She had an American accent and was married to a black man. There were also other individuals there, too. One of them was called Jas*n Brydges, he was one of the trainers as well, although I don't remember much else about him. Many behaviors of these individuals could have only been described as "weird". That, or they knew about me and my past.


At the time, I could not explain how any of this could have happened. I only knew that it happened, but everybody who I ever talked to, all thought I was mentally ill. So, I endured the name of a schizophrenic for 20 years. Please note: I do have a personal hypothesis about how an advertisement on Craigslist could lead to a job at a company like eBay where state security intelligence agents might be planted. But it's in the realm of speculation, so I won't post it here. If a reader is interested in hearing about my theory, they are welcome to email me at my email address which I will provide below.




After I was broken by this M*ke Fould/Foulds individual and had my first encounter with the mental health establishment of my province, I left *** By now I had acquired the reputation of a schizophrenic patient, although I wasn't certified. Starting back then was when I knew someone was watching me online. I didn't know who exactly, but I knew someone was watching. It also hadn't yet occurred to me that it could be the state security apparatus of Canada. This was when William (and any fellow hacker friends he might have had) must have also started watching me, if not earlier. Similarly, I also did not know it at the time. If my conjecture is correct then William bears witness to my persecution ever since then. With regards to William, I really have very little information about him. The only thing I can surmise is that he was a part of the group of people who first started following me online when I first made my contentious statements back in early 2000s. But, without any proof, I won't speculate further.



In 2008, I came across another online forum called totse.com, now defunct. There on the forum, I connected with a poster by the user-name of Panzerfaust0. I first contacted him through a private message, then our conversation moved to the now-defunct MSN messenger. Right off the bat, he tried to persuade me to join an illegal marijuana grow operation. Then, when I refused, he made other illegal suggestions to me. At the time I didn't know, but later I learned this is called entrapment. I have two suspicions: 1. Panzerfaust0 was likely associated with the state security apparatus; and 2. the goal of these attempts to entice me into these criminal activities, was to give me a criminal record. I base this on the rumor that alleges that some of the intelligence agencies of the West sometimes carry out, against political dissenters and "troublemakers", sting operations that are almost indistinguishable from entrapment. But, I don't have any proof, so I won't speculate any further. So, our chat went on for about 2 months, during which I became increasingly friendly with Panzerfaust0 and the conversations grew more and more intimate. I eventually developed feelings for him.





Now, a little bit of background, and this is incredibly difficult for me to admit to, but I am extremely desperate, I have to find and rescue William, so I am telling you about my checkered past, with the knowledge that my secret and my past, will be revealed to the public at large: I used to have a gas problem, which I felt extremely, extremely sensitive about. I was also bullied severely in high school and even in university because of it. I had a crush on a boy in high school, I really, really liked him, but he was very cruel and made fun of my gas problem, which traumatized me extremely and haunted me all the way throughout my late teens and early 20s. Anyway, so both sides knew about this (my past was revealed on the aforementioned computer gaming forum, because I was very poor at protecting my anonymity).



So, this Panzerfaust0 individual claimed that he had a problem with his nose, that he could not smell anything, presumably to lure me in. The other side, the people who were also watching me, must have seen it, too. I assume that William was among them. Anyway, I fell for this Panzerfaust0 poster. I was incredibly infatuated with him, my voluminous love-struck posts on the forum as well as private messages to him attested to how strong my feelings were. Eventually, my feelings grew so strong that I flew to his city, Toronto, to see him. We met a few times, and my feelings for him remained very strong. Panzerfaust0 claimed his first name was Mat, although I am pretty sure it's fictitious. He is 5 foot 9, brown haired and green-eyed. Half Italian and half Polish. Although at the time, most of the information he gave me about himself, was later revealed to be made up. He told me he went to the Queen's university's law school. He was born in the December of 1987 or thereabouts. He had an attractive face, which I will have no trouble recognizing if I ever see it again.


By the way, there was a girl who went by the screen name of Some girl on totse, who claimed to be a friend of Panzerfaust0. She claimed her name was Olga. She lived in Toronto and was incredibly beautiful. She was about 5 foot 3, brown hair and eyes, a bit chunky but not really fat. She has Russian and German ancestry. She was intelligent and good at math. She was born in July of 1989, or so she said. The first time I met up with Panzerfaust0, she was there, too. Then a few times I subsequently met up with him again, she was also there. She passed along Panzerfaust0's email address to me, which I know realize is fake. The email is Ihatemeaford@gmail.com. She would talk to me about Panzerfaust0. And just like him, she would also disappear and then re-appear at strategic times. She probably had some sort of involvement in all this too, because now looking back, I can see that she seemed to encourage my infatuation with Panzerfaust0 or at least indulge it. If I see her again, I will also be able to recognize her for sure.



Then, I said things on totse again, things similar to the sort I said in early 2000s that got me into trouble in the first place. Predictably, the entity struck again.


At a strategic moment, Panzerfaust0 disappeared for a few days with zero explanation given, which drove me to a very vulnerable emotional state. Then I suddenly came to the realization that the boy I was so in love with, knew about my gas problem. I was distraught. On the day of my realization, I went out. "Random" people walked by me on the street, and yelled out the intimate nickname I gave Panzerfaust0 and said to me, "The pain will never end", and things of that nature. I ended up extremely distraught. William likely saw all the posts I made online during this period. However, despite all this, I remained mentally intact.



When it became apparent that I did not have a psychotic breakdown upon having my secret found out, what could only be described as gang-stalking, was then unleashed on me. The following is what was done to me: "random" people would walk down the streets and whisper my name to me as I walked by. They also audibly said things to me that could have been known only from online, and they would also yell out to me the various online aliases I used, and things of that nature. Cars would arrive just in time when I got to an intersection, the driver of which would look at me meaningfully and menacingly. I literally got the sense that there was a vast ring of unknown actors scattered throughout my usual routes and hangouts.


I did not know back then, but I now know this is called gang-stalking. If you are unfamiliar with what gang-stalking is and what the various techniques are, I encourage you to do research to learn about it. Gang-stalking contains many elements similar to a psychological operation. In other words, it is a form of psyop. It is designed to drive the victim into committing suicide. If that outcome is not achieved, then to give them a name as a mental patient, because the things done to them are so unbelievable and so outside the experience of an ordinary person, that when the victim tries to tell others, invariably they get labelled schizophrenic. Anyway, the gang-stalking finally drove me to a psychotic breakdown.


I ended up calling my parents and told them everything that happened to me. Of course, they did not believe any of it. They figured I had gone crazy again. At the end, I was brought back to British Columbia. But, the persecution did not stop. Once I was back in BC, more things were done to me, including Panzerfaust0 appearing and then disappearing at strategic times and various other things designed to undermine my emotional and psychological well-being. This time, I really lashed out hard, behaving in an extremely frantic and ill manner. As a consequence, I was brought to two hospitals, first the Royal Columbian hospital and then Burnaby hospital. Soon afterwards, I was formally certified as a mental patient under the BC Mental Health Act. I received rough treatments at Burnaby hospital (details available upon request).




I was certified pretty much ever since I came back to BC, that was around 2009. I had been in and out of the hospital and was finally decertified in 2015. During this time, I left many countless, tear-stained, heart-broken messages to Panzerfaust0, both on the public forum (by now totse had been succeeded by a forum called zoklet), as well as in private, in the fake email address of his that was passed along by Olga. All these tear-stained, begging emails, begging him to talk to me again, asking him to come online to help me get decertified so I could go to Toronto to see him again, asking him through tears why the complete silence from him when we used to be so close, and many more such heart-broken messages, were all deleted by an unknown entity. I know this because I can say with 100% certainty that I did not delete them myself. All this went on for almost 6 years.






Many more things were done to me during this period, from 2009 to 2015 by the entity (details available upon request). Around 2015 was when zoklet got taken down as well. I then migrated to other online forums. I believe William was able to follow me all over the internet during this period, which what appears to be his superior computer skills enabled him to do. The entity was also still following me. I believe plants were placed in online forums I went to, as well they would approach me through various channels posing as potential romantic partners. There was one such individual by the name of Criz Duren. His email address is rajincajuncjd@gmail.com.

This post was edited by JessiWan on Mar 4 2026 10:58pm

And then, through the Craigslist site that I got my eBay job from, I encountered a job advertisement from yet another individual possibly connected to the entity. He went by the name of J*hn Kenneth Loucks, which I suspect to be fictitious. He was the manager at C-Lovers seafood restaurant in North Vancouver, the address of which is 1660 Pemberton Avenue, North Vancouver, BC, Canada. He claimed his date of birth is ____, time of birth was around 4 AM. He is about 5 foot 10, brown hair and green-eyed, is part French and part Norwegian. As for why I think he was also connected to the entity, please email me and I will give you my rationale. The reason I mentioned this person, was because of the restaurant he worked at. I believe it would be possible to look at the business registration of said restaurant, to see if we could discover any sort of connection, and to whom. I got this idea ever since I learned that many intelligence agencies of the West are known to operate "shell companies" through which dubious business is conducted. Anyway, it's a thought.


I don't remember when exactly, but I think it was around maybe 2018 or 2019, that I read about the microblogging site Gab.com in a news outlet. It was similar to Twitter, except on it you could talk about things that would normally get you banned on big tech platforms like Twitter and Facebook. Gab had a reputation for hosting what one might call, extremist content. I strongly believe that Gab was a site highly watched by the US government. I had an account there under JessiWan. Two things I suspect of Gab: 1. It has fallen into the hands of the US state intelligence apparatus as of August 19th, 2025; and 2. William was the administrator of it. On Gab.com, under my JessiWan account, I started to say yet more things.


During this time I also discovered the site called Incel Wiki (address: https://incels.wiki/w/Main_Page). William likely, though I have no proof, was an author and the administrator of the Incel Wiki site. He was probably the admin for its Discord server as well. To this day I still cannot figure out how a virtual stranger like William, was able to get me to land on his site. All I have are speculations, which I won't go into any further. Anyway. The following is going to also sound improbable, however, I solemnly swear it's my true and genuine perception, and I was not hallucinating. William saw I was visiting his site (if you are the administrator of a site, you can find out who's reading your site by looking at the IP address), so, he wrote articles on there that I knew were meant for me, things that alluded to me and my circumstances, without direct reference to me. I believe this was done out of William's empathy and sense of compassion to spare me the pain of knowing that he knew about my past and my gas problem.


So basically, I detected many articles on Incel Wiki that were written in oblique reference to me. I had no proof of this, I only had a gut feeling to go by, but I declare that this was my true perception of it. I dared not mention my discovery to anybody, for fear that they would accuse me of hallucinating again. As for the reason I believe it was William behind all those articles, was because of the amount of knowledge about me. It could only be obtained by someone who had an intimate knowledge about me, my past, and my online activities. And William fit the bill. There were also a few other signs that pointed to him, which readers are welcome to email me to inquire about.



With more and more time spent on Incel Wiki, and reading all the funny and cute articles William likely wrote and the cryptic messages he would put in them, I started to develop feelings for him. And my understanding was that he had feelings for me as well. I would also write things in my computer, completely in private and not online, to let William know that I was moved that he liked me, despite my past, and that I no longer resented him for hacking into my computers. He saw all this easily, and it must have really encouraged him. Things finally culminated in William registering on this yet another forum I went to (https://www.usmessageboard.com/), presumably to connect with me in an official way. We got to talking in private mail first, then we exchanged email addresses, then we started to have a proper conversation. I learned that his first name was William, and that he was on a government watch-list. Although he technically never said he was American, I just assumed he was, because all signs pointed to it. He also told me a few other things (details available upon request). Most notably, he said he "spoke truth to power", how he had to practice cyber-security very carefully, because without it, it was essentially "suicidal". I should also add that on the US message board, we also talked about Jews without restraint.



Almost immediately after William told me his name, he disappeared from communications. This was around the evening of August 19th, 2025, Pacific time. I still have the timestamps of the emails from that time. Then, he re-appeared in about 12 hours later. I have zero idea what happened during those 12 hours. When he came back, something about him seemed "off". I do not know William in a personal sense, we had never met in person, not even talked on the phone, but I had read his many articles on Incel wiki, plus I did talk to him for a bit in emails, both these things together tipped off my "spidey senses", and told me this person was not him. He then said some things that were really strange for someone who was in his position (details available upon request). This further cemented my suspicion. Finally, I came to the realization he was probably captured by his country's state intelligence apparatus, and his email account was taken over. I have first-hand experience of the kinds of things people like us are subjected to, so I feared for William and I panicked. First I uttered a myriad of emotionally-charged remarks, got no response, I said more things, again got no response. Then panic set in even further.







The next few days I was in extreme panic mode. William was missing. Gab.com was defaced and showed signs of being hacked into (this was what clued me in that William was likely the administrator of Gab. Somehow someone must have obtained his admin password during those 12 hours, through means unknown). I started posting frantically on Gab and in email to his email account that had now been take over. I was met with complete silence, which only made me more distraught and desperate. My emotions were completely out of control and my imagination was at a fevered pitch. Finally things came to a head. I confronted the entity head-on and gave an incredibly detailed account (details available upon request) of what I endured for the past 20 years, telling how much I hated them, and such. It was a bit similar to this letter but vastly more emotional.



In the account, I swore total vengeance. I made threats and accusations. A lot of really heavy stuff. But more importantly, I referenced my gas problem directly, which must have really alarmed them. I think that up until that point the entity was counting on me being too ashamed of it, to dare come forward. But then it must have hit them that my gas problem was no longer holding me back. I was willing to do literally anything to rescue William. Stakes were high; if I came forward to testify, it would do an extreme amount of reputational damage to the ones responsible. I have no doubt people in high places would fall from grace, if the public ever learned about the kinds of things that were done, to helpless individuals.



Then, the entity responded swiftly to my threats and things were done to me again. This time, they were really unbelievable things, things I have trouble making sense of even to this day (details available upon request). So, I ended up being taken to Surrey Memorial hospital, where I was certified again. After that I was transferred to Royal Columbia hospital, and finally Burnaby hospital. At the first two hospitals, I experienced inhumane treatments and abuses (details available upon request). If I can recover the patient-room video surveillance tape and voice-recording, then some of these abuses will be corroborated. In Surrey Memorial hospital, there were also abuses that took place in areas without video surveillance, and readers are welcome to email me to inquire about them. Anyway, I won't dwell on this for now, because my goal isn't to "get even" with anybody. My goals right now are to: 1. Clear my name as a mental patient; and 2. Rescue William.



Now, I am going to include my real name and contact information, even though it would mean I will likely lose my privacy. I am doing this because I want the readers to be able to contact me, see me, talk to me, and see that I am a real person, and most importantly, to see that I am completely sane and not delusional. I am not a mental patient, I do not have schizophrenia. Everything I have ever told in this letter is all true, and you can question me on anything I have said, and I can corroborate everything I have said:


My legal name is ____. I came to Canada from ___ in the year of ___. I graduated from ____ in 2002. I went to three high schools in Canada: ___,___, and ___. My email is ___. My permanent address is _____________. Please do not drop by unannounced. If you wish to speak to me in person, please first talk to me through email and depending on how things go, I might meet you at my house, and we will either go to a nearby coffeeshop, or come into my home, to do a proper interview.



Right now the most important thing, is I want to let the public at large know that I am being persecuted by what appears to be the state intelligence apparatus of my country. My writings, which I posted in the first portion of the book, should hopefully bolster this claim. I hope that by getting my story out, I can perhaps garner support from the community, and pressure the responsible party into giving some kind of public response. The next thing, is to rescue William.



I have run into so many walls trying to rescue William, I don't know what to do. I know next to nothing about him, he was wrenched from me before I got the chance to really get to know him. However, I still know a few things about him: He is on the (likely US) government watchlist; he is likely American, he is likely the administrator to Gab.com prior to August 19th, 2025; he was born between 1990 to 1995; I also have a few probable ranges of dates within this 5-year window for his approximate date of birth (details available upon request). He is autistic. His then email address is ___. His username on USmessageboard.com was highlight. His username on free-thought forum was disobey. I also have certain speculations about what he looks like physically, but please keep in mind these are all un-substantiated. But you are still welcome to email me to inquire about what I know and how I arrived at it, it could aid in identifying him.


In closing, thanks for reading. Please help me by getting in touch.

This post was edited by JessiWan on Mar 4 2026 11:04pm

It’s a very detailed and clearly heartfelt account, but as an evaluation from a forum perspective it reads mostly as a personal testimony without verifiable evidence, so readers will likely have a hard time assessing the claims objectively. You might also want to reconsider posting identifying details like emails, names, and addresses—many forums discourage or remove that kind of information for privacy and safety reasons (you could get warned). Other than that, I hope you’re able to find the support or help you’re looking for.

It is an interesting phenomenon that I find myself often agreeing with net's comments. So, once again, I 2nd their comment. I hope you do get the help you need, too.

Thank you for the feedback, and yes, I agree with you that I have little evidence. This is something I can't change though. So in this case, what can I do to bolster my letter?

=)


I suggest communicating with AI about this topic because you probably won't get the help you're wanting if you look on d2jsp.

My tummy feels very weird right now. I assume that im being poisoned again

For who is this letter?
d2jsp?

Idk about all the other stuff but I do suspect gab was hacked by the Feds. No one was doxed no ransom was requested and the hacked info was never made public. The hacker who publicly took credit was ex fbi and part of anonymous who are all pretty much fed assets now.

This post was edited by 4nt on Mar 5 2026 01:56am

I dont think Anon are all fed assets now. They really hate the establishment. Especially the feds.