You are not answering the question and going straight into projection territory. Always trying to deflect and make it about me.
Btw wake me up when you have that proof on your magic god being real. Been roaching out on me every time I ask.
?? it's like im talking to someone with a split personality or something, your questions were "'Why are you obsessed to have an explanation to have a reason at all?"" and "so what?"
you admitted defeat and said "so what? why care?"
your worldview cannot account for the things it borrows from Christianity. it's called reductio ad absurdum. without the Logos (the God you call 'magic'), you cannot justify the very tools you are using to ask for proof. you admitted you don't care about 'justification' or 'ontology,' which means you’ve abandoned the requirements of proof altogether.
there is no other worldview that explains the possibility of the preconditions logic itself, the one and the many, free will, the intelligibility of nature, induction etc and when attempting to understand these things you just said "lol so what i don't have to know how things work or care, i just enjoy it"
this is called defeat. complete and utter defeat.
you simultaneously hold the idea that "I am a collection of accidental atoms in a meaningless universe where logic is just a concept in my head and I don't need a reason for anything."
and
"I am a free agent who cares about truth, uses logic to win arguments, and expects the laws of physics to remain consistent"
your position is an incoherent contradiction