Journaling helped
Especially when I was pissed and in a fuck everything mood.
I just bought a trapper keeper to put stuff in. I feel like a bad ass.
Finding religion didn't apply to me then so much as now, neither did AA/NA. Not saying it doesn't work for people, I just have my own irrelevant opinions on the AA/NA stuff
A good thing to do is try to stay busy, even if you don't/can't work, take up a hobby. At the time I did califgraphy a bit, cooking a lot, and coding for computers.
Needless to stay I stuck with cooking since I can share that with people. It's rewarding in its own way. I was selfish when I needed my stuff
i pretty much cut ties with everyone i know and got back into gaming. na/aa wasnt for me as well. it gets easier with time but life gets very boring.