I don’t believe you actually think that, it’s just you trying to be edgy.
Mate i have had cancer twice, i know my death is coming, as is that of every other person alive today, we all go out whether we want to or not, i don't know how i am going to die but it won't be of old age.
Kirk could have been killed in a traffic accident tomorrow.
I do not waste empathy on people who do not believe in it, and i do not feel bad for people who lived a hateful existence.
I do not expect anyone outside of those i have personal relationships with me to care when i die either.