my youngest brother killed himself on mothers day around 9am...he was 23 years old.

im trying so hard not to relapse on booze but its fucking hard...
wish i would have been a better older brother, i tried to be the father figure but obviously i failed...

/endrant

This post was edited by magikod on May 12 2025 03:01am

Don’t put that on yourself bud.
I’m sorry about your loss but you can’t put something like that on yourself or it will eat you alive.

i know, i just talked to him a few weeks ago and he was doing good. i just didnt want to pink slip him, i figured he'd never talked to me again...

fuck antidepressants...he'd been better off doing 420 or drinking daily. he started hearing voices in his head he told me after taking some antidepressant.

So sorry for your loss

Condolences my fellow degen. Life can be as wicked as it is beautiful.

Not sure what your overall music taste is, but this is a song that's always helped me when loved ones have passed, lol I probably would've made fun of it as a younger version of myself, but after growing past metal and rap. I've learned to really enjoy the message of thus song.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=gRm4m4BP4t0&pp=ygUrbmFoa28gbWVkaWNpbmUgZm9yIHRoZSBwZW9wbGUgYWxvaGEga2UgYWt1YQ%3D%3D

If the link don't work, it's nahko and the medicine for people - Aloha Ke Akua (Acoustic Piano Version) make sure it's the piano version, the original version just don't feel as powerful.

Feel better. And remember there's more to life than anyone allows you.

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Oh my. What a terrible terrible thing. Depression is an illness, and often unnoticed. The burden is not yours to hold. There are many support resources for people who find themselves in the situation you’re in. Reach out to suicide survivors. The suicide hotline also takes grieving calls if you find yourself in a tough spot. Falling back on your faith is extremely important when life sends you trials.

May God bless you, my friend.

sorry to hear man keep your head up

I'm glad he died.

Damn that shits rough man, sorry for your loss