I have an amazingly bad track record with relationships. besides hookups, i have no clue how to connect with women on a basis that isn't just drugs and sex. I have no sense of romance because i believe it's a bit of a pathetic joke and that people are all self absorbed anduntrustworthy in their nature. i barely connect with anyone lately and it's killing me inside. It's almost like i'm having the same episode i had about ten years ago. I just see very little that's appealing character wise in people. And the worst part is i don't think anything i do is ever going to change this shit situation i'm in. as if i'm doomed to repeat the same cycle forever. i miss the most basic cues all the fucking time. I also just hate socializing openly or going to crowded places.
And believe me i've tried to be better. i really really have only to get fucked over every time.
I know it's easier said than done, but just try and find someone you have more in common with. With me and my fiancé, we basically live the same lives. We have similar jobs so it's easier for us to talk about our day, with have similar interests and ways to relax so we can either spend time together or do our own thing and be fine with it.
I believe you shouldn't have to work at the relationship for it to work. Work eventually becomes tiring, which means eventually losing interest. We don't have to work at it, we just live our lives the way we want and it just works for the both of us.
If you can't just be yourself and have your SO accept it, and vise versa, then it isn't meant to be.