Today is finally FRIDAY
Lol i can't tell how many fridays i've looked forward to, finally end of week, time to crack that bottle of whisky, cold pepsi max in the fridge, ice cubes in the freezer. Literally hundreds and hundreds of times the last 20 years. That's over now. Now it's like, stay even keeled, just enjoy the day and weekend for what it is. No need to go crazy all the time. It's been a lot of fun. A Lot of fun. But also a lot of problems and bs. Alcohol really is the demon. When you make a deal with the devil, you don't know what you're going to get. But over time, you learn that it's never worth it. It may give great gratification and satisfaction there and then. But over time, he wants a piece of your soul. And that's not worth it. Pusing it over that edge, it's like, you can end up in a home or hospital, or even dead. That's the price you may have to pay. You never know when the devil wants that price. So that's the philosophy for me now .. the next bottle could be my last. So it's stay at 0% for life now. I'm not making any more deals.
In tarot, the devil stands for inner boundaries, the card shows a devil that is chained, and he (can be she too) has wings. And unless we are able or willing to give up our chained habits, to break our inner boundaries, we cannot use our wings to fly. We cannot truly feel free. That goes for everything in life, not just drugs; Faulty relations, living conditions, anything.
So fridays, yeah. It's been a lot of fun. Now, it's like an everyday ordeal. And that's okay. The devil can go chase someone else.
