Quote (Historic @ 27 Oct 2013 07:00)
I'm gonna try and consolidate this. I started smoking weed on and off rarely couple of years ago and I enjoyed it Never really was a big pothead. One day I smoked with my cousin keep in mind i never knew what i was smoking ppl would get it for me and let me smoke with them. The one time i smoked with my cousin i took about 2-3 good hits and i'd say about 20 mins later i the room started spinning i knew I had to sit down. I sit down and i fell into a horrific and I mean terrifying state of Psychosis I was locked into 1 thought at a time which felt like 20 years. I was sure i was gona end up in a mental ward if i would of drove i would of killed myself, those effects lasted about a few hours. My body mind and personality recovered from that and i didnt smoke for a while.
few months later I was under a lot of stress so i figured wtf ill smoke it might make me feel better. so i smoked this blue dream shit the effects weren't as violent as the time i previously stated but i know something was very very wrong i went into a state of panic. this time the depersonalization and feeling of high lasted 2 or 3 days. I developed panic disorder which alleviated after about 2-3 months.
But now I'm dealing with permanent effect on my opinion of life and death I haven't had a panic attack and they cleared me off panic disorder but the strange feeling of fear of death grips me now and I would of never of felt like this if i didn't smoke that weed. Im struggling to try get myself to feel the way I did before i smoked weed.
you probably smoked some strong shit
don't panic man, you'll be fine; you probably have a few more things to learn about life before you write yourself off ;-)
in future if you decide to smoke weed don't do it alone, it's always better if you're with people you trust+having good times