I rly hope this doesnt turn into a weed is bad for u thread. We know weed does damage the body, however far less that a LOT of other things. Weed has benefits just like benadryll, but also has its conquences. Lets get off that subject area
@OP: Its a sad stereotype in our current culture that almost everyone goes through some version of this in their teenage life. I think there is a lot going on here; psychologically, physically, enviormentally etc.
Weed is indeed helping your situation from what you've said.
I've been in a similar situation only mine was a bit different. When i was a senior in high school i developed a peptic ulcer, which can be extremely painful. Trouble for me was, not a single person believed me even after the doctor diagnosed it and they expected me to do a lot of things when i feel absolutly awful. And they were assholes about it. "Stop being such a fuckin baby, etc etc" They were not nice at all. I even got made fun of for it. Every day was a living hell; i would always wonder how i'd make it to the end of this one. It would get so bad sometimes that i thought i was going to die. I never wanted to eat cuz i just had no appetite, i didnt want to interact socially cuz everyone was being jerks at the time. I was extremely depressed and was on the brink of suicide. I couldnt stand being alive at that point but im sure glad i hung on and pulled through. The thing that got me out of it was the food i was eatting. A switch to a healthier diet went miles for me. My doctor failed to help me, and only gave me more pills which made it worst. So i clung onto 1 principal; and while it was a very selfish mentality, it worked remarkably well. I only did things that made me feel good after them. I only ate food that made me feel good after it, regardless if it tasted like crap. Thats how i got into nutrition
That doesnt seem like a typical case for a teenager, but the point im making is that we all go through shit like this, and unfortunatly, in our society we all throw blame at each other and ostrasize one another and no one feels safe talking things out. We treat each other like total shit, there is no compassion anymore. If i was you, i would surround myself with true, trustable, and compassionate friends. Posting on here was a bold move and i see you're reaching out. Im sure some of us will genuinely help you, but for me its been my good friends that have made the biggest impact.
So my advice; get a good friend to talk to and release emotional enegry. Even someone on here is better than no one. You should never be afriad to ask to confide in someone else
And if the weed genuinely makes u feel better, then by all means. You should however be mindful of how you feel, since that should be the focus.
And whatever you do, plz plz plz dont go onto any hard drugs. You do not want to go down that path. Weed is relatively safe as far as drugs are concerned and if it helps u through a tough time; well i got no qualms with that. Also if you do see a psychologist, then i would think very seriously before taking any medication from them. I'm not saying dont; im not the doctor, but be cautious, ive had many friends who have been on psychoactive drugs and it has a cascade of negative problems and rarely addresses the problem in the first place. I think what you need the most is just a place to vent and people to talk to and people you can connect with.
Also, you might consider adopting a better diet. Now i dont want to sound like im preaching about health or anything, but there are a lot of things that could be contributing to your problems. I konw that for example; eliminating gluten from the diet goes miles for people who are suffering with anxiety. The food we eat has enormous impact on how we feel and our mood etc. There is any range of health confilicts that could be in this, and if you do choose to go down this road, you should definatly seek help of a professional nutritionist who can identify those things. If not switching the diet; maybe try just taking a lot of the bandits out and see how u feel. Thats the seed that got planted and lead me onto eatting healthier and healthier.
Hope what i said holds some value for you.