Quote (TwilightJr @ Feb 22 2011 10:13pm)

So I'm 15, I go to school (I feel as if im being forced to, not willing) I feel as if I'm some sort of robot, controlled by my parents Do this Do that.
I hate school, I walk into the doors miserable, I put on a fake smile to mask how fucking depressed I am.
But, I am not here to tell you my life story or ask for your sympathy, because quite frankly there is none to be shared.
I am a smoker, I smoke weed, nothing else. I haven't done anything else, except smoked the odd cigarette.
I don't eat, I don't want to be around anyone, I just want to be alone, but I don't mind talking to people, I don't shoo away people, I enjoy company.


Now for what I'm really trying to get at and searching for help is.

When I'm high, I feel happy, I want to go school, I want to see my friends, I want to eat, I do what my parents ask, why is that when I'm not high, I feel like I a different person?

Is it really the weed that's helping me?

I'm not trolling, say whatever you please, if you can help me, do.
If you want to bring me down even more, go ahead. I'm at the lowest I can be.

Quote (ZvLoD @ Feb 23 2011 06:53pm)

Anxiety obv. Being high cancels out the effects.
If Doctors werent such douche bags now, you might've got some Xanax.. instead they'd probably unload whatever Anti-depressant is the flavor of the weak that will fuck with your head / make you want to kill yourself.

Quote (ZvLoD @ Feb 23 2011 06:53pm)

Anxiety obv. Being high cancels out the effects.
If Doctors werent such douche bags now, you might've got some Xanax.. instead they'd probably unload whatever Anti-depressant is the flavor of the weak that will fuck with your head / make you want to kill yourself.

Quote (juliusjuice @ Feb 23 2011 07:30pm)

can also amplify anxiety.

Quote (Osirislives @ Feb 23 2011 06:44pm)

depends on strain, person

a lot of factors to consider really, weed does not make me anxious at all, in fact i feel more relaxed

Quote (stupidkid282 @ Feb 22 2011 11:28pm)

it's probably all in your head.

hating school is mostly immaturity. just go and do it. get what you can out of it.

Unless your parents are complete retards, you should be grateful you have them and listen to them. You're 15, you're not an adult.

Quote (shardoflard @ Feb 23 2011 02:49am)

Youre going to be depressed when youre sober until you've been sober long enough to find yourself again and you will come to love your god given sober mind once you do so. You're fucking your young mind over by getting high so much at a young age.

trust me.. stop smoking.. get anti depressants if you have to. Youre brain is still developing until age 25ish. Dont hamper its ability to do so

(i was a heavy smoker for a while, in case youre wondering)

Quote (samah @ Feb 23 2011 11:25pm)

bad answers are bad lol

nothing wrong with smoking weed... You dont need to smoke weed but you dont need to stop smoking weed. As far as school goes, you hate it for a reason. It's putting bullshit information in your head. Just pointless shit you need to remember for the next test and then forget about it a few days after... Just stay true to yourself and dont let anyone influence that not even me. Your universe will guide you through all your life problems if you pay attention! We are all one and so the way you perceive the world changes everything.

Quote (TwilightJr @ Feb 22 2011 10:13pm)

(I feel as if im being forced to, not willing) I feel as if I'm some sort of robot, controlled by my parents Do this Do that.
I put on a fake smile to mask how fucking depressed I am. life story ... there is none to be shared.
I just want to be alone

Now for what I'm really trying to get at and searching for help is.

high

I feel like I a different person?