Thanks guys, all this is helping. If you would like to shed some more light on it by all means.

I get that, trust me I have been there before.

A counselor will help... I have been having problems lately and I recently made an appointment to see a counselor for the first time in my life, I see them Thursday morning. Ever since making the appointment I have felt a lot better because I genuinely believe that it is a firm step in the right direction and that it is the best move I can make towards being healthy.

Opening up to someone with an education in this sort of stuff is the best thing that you can do. Friends don't have the skills, resources, or time to give you what you need. Like someone already said, everything with your counselor is confidential. You can admit to absolutely anything.

Youre going to be depressed when youre sober until you've been sober long enough to find yourself again and you will come to love your god given sober mind once you do so. You're fucking your young mind over by getting high so much at a young age.

trust me.. stop smoking.. get anti depressants if you have to. Youre brain is still developing until age 25ish. Dont hamper its ability to do so

(i was a heavy smoker for a while, in case youre wondering)


This post was edited by shardoflard on Feb 23 2011 01:50am

You're fine, just going thru the bullshit most teenagers go through. Hell, I went thru it. Hating doing things for my parents, etc. i still feel compelled to do the opposite of what i'm told, but it gets easier.

smoking weed just masks all the emotions that are currently overwhelming. basically before adolescence (insert socio-science here) children are psychopaths/ sociopaths, with little if any 'moral compass'. sure they may know right from wrong, but they do not experience emotion the way adults do. when you go thru puberty all the chemicals and hormones and shit really mess with your head, and you shouldn't smoke all the time because then you're brain will become dependent on the mj in the long run, which you really don't need, because after 19 it gets easier. i know its 4 years away, but in those four years, you can either focus on school so you don't have to pick your life up off the floor, or you can waste it being miserable and then in four years, you'll be really miserable

i smoked a good amount back in the day, and i still do occasionally, but tbh i really don't have the time anymore.



This post was edited by BlackSwan on Feb 23 2011 02:47am

thts coz u r 15, wait for 10 more years n u'll understand why ur parents told u to do things tht u dun like rite now. its all about understanding things, get good!

You are 15years old ... you have much to explore , weed is one of that things you need to explore .. I asume you dont have much smoking history since your 15 .. but as you smoke more and more youll see ( if you are open minded and smart person ) all kinds of blocation removing .... When you high dont laugh , think
anyway join my guild if you want we help you

and your toughts about school are absolutly correct ... you are just one robot doing things ... Edducation in school wont do any good for you .. go and explore world on your own make your own conclutions , your own laws ... you will be much happier and stronger person

Would it help my case if I said this has been happening for awhile, well the feelings over a year now but I tried other things, like meditating, writing, but weed was the only thing that pacified me.
I talked to my mom and she told me I over-think way to much and it hurts me, because I constantly think, I have a problem when people don't understand what I'm trying to say, so I get hostile.
Weed is the only thing that slows me down to keep that concentration focused and not just consistently bouncing around, breaking down everything into its tiniest detail.

It can take up to few years ... until you bring radical revolution in your brain

Chemical imbalances in your brain could legit be a part of this.. talk to a psychologist