You need the spark of life. Motivation is simply the result of this spark. You cannot force yourself to be motivated, this much I am sure you have already realized. Instead, you need to go about it the other way. You need to find out what the problem is. And the problem is simply the fact that you are feeling stress. Instead of being playful and going about your work with child-like innocence, your thoughts get in the way. The thoughts about the future, the thoughts about whether or not you will enjoy your work, the fact that you have many desires, most of which you are afraid will go unfulfilled. You need to turn the table around. Nullify your stress. Remember that invigorating feeling you had as a child. Try and remember it in as much detail as possible. This is what you're going after. You need to be playful. You need to enjoy. You need to realize that whatever you do, doesn't matter. The outside is simply a shell, a figment of your universal imagination. The inside is where the chaos lies. If you can dwell in that chaos, all the knots will untie. And you will know you have discovered something truly great. Then motivation will come naturally, and you will feel its strength throughout the essence of your being. The best advice I can give you is, start meditating. Focus. Realize what your true desires are, and follow them without questioning yourself.

I usually dont reply to hate posts from unknowns, but ill make an exception with you here. Some haters (like you) or like the D3 guy who tells me to stay in D2 (you bet your ass im not moving to D3, so you dont have to worry about that), some haters keep saying "what a fucking nerd" "nerd to the max" "what a loser with no life" "delusional kid living in a fantasy world" "nerdy kid who writes stories nobody cares about" etc.

Let me start by saying that I dont feel offended by any of those insults. I just laugh, because:

1) I dont know if im a nerd or not (this depends on what you define what a nerd is), what I do know is that I DO have a life. I like playing games, but I do it with balance (I play in my free time as long as it doesnt affect work/going out/gym/dates with girls, etc). But as much as I like playing games,I also like meeting nice normal girls (not crappy filled with diseases hookers/prostitutes) and having sex with different nice girls almost every 2 weekends or so (yes I take statistics even for that, as an engineer I like numbers a lot lol). Most of these nice girls who act tough at the beginning all you have to do is take off your shirt and they will automatically "open their legs", and this is normal because is human instinct and desire, girls want to fuck as much as guys do, but they try to "hide" the desire unlike us men who are more open, andyeah taking off the shirt works for me because I work out at the gym all the time and eat healthy food, drink healthy drinks, stay fit, etc. Also, working out at the gym helps my performance in soccer and helps my body work in perfect or almost perfect harmony, a concept most people dont even know about. So yes, I do have a lifeand enjoy it a lot, and im addicted to women as much as im addicted to dueling/pking in D2.

2) In regards of the "fantasy world I live in" or "stories nobody cares about" comments... do I give a shit if 5 or 10 or 20 or 100 or 1000 guys on the internet dont care about my videos or stories?. No, because as long as only 1 person enjoys them, then I have fulfilled my goal (and trust me a lot of people enjoy them because I dont lie when I say that I receive plenty positive PMs when I post new videos). Im not doing this for money, im doing it for fun as a pastime/hoobie. So I dont care if some people dont care, im not trying to sell anything here. Im mostly inspired by my older brother, when we were younger in our teen years, we used to film home-made movies with our friends and cousins, of course he was the director and also writer of these home-made movies we filmed, but we all took part in them acting and such, and we never cared about the "quality" of these movies, we didnt give a shit about that, we did it for the fun, to enjoy them, to have a good time and then after finishing each movie, gather together and watch the movie all of us friends, cousins, family and laugh at it, sometimes we made great home-made quality movies, sometimes they turned out shitty, but hilariously shitty, you know, when its so shitty that is actually funny.

So when I made my videos (which im done making now), I did them inspired in those teen years, only that nowin this case I was the director and writer, and the characters (mine and my dueling opponents or pking victims were the ones playing the role of "actors") and those little stories I added to the dueling or pking videos (such as "emperor hulk" "king terenios conquer of europe" etc), may seem nerdy? dumb? you may call it whatever you want, I just call it creativity and just to spice the pking or dueling videos a bit, to make them slightly interesting (maybe not to you, but to some other fellow D2 players) and as a way to combine the memory of my teen years with my brother and this game. After all, this is just a game we play for fun and arent

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