Read 1 hour solid. Take an hour and a half off guilt free and game.

Repeat.

I don't know if it's expensive to start in California

but Security is a great job for studying

x2 and/or union jobs.

Join ur cellphone kingpin dad. Fuck pride

Try listening to this or something similar while reading .
I have a hard time concentrating but when I put my headphones on and crank the music to linkin park instrumentals , I'm in the zone ha !

[YOUTUBE]http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=lkbiB0QfU3s[/YOUTUBE]

[YOUTUBE]http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=553x-geDc7El[/YOUTUBE]

I feel your pain. You can and will work through it if you wish to.

I am in a similar boat emotionally and am just going through the motions at the moment. But, I am still trying to find things to occupy myself whenever possible, whether it be reading, trying to learn to do new skills, or working on business stuff.

The unproductive moments are the worst, especially when you are an introspective introvert. Way too much time to think, and nothing but your thoughts to drive you mad.

When you start turning things in your mind over and over, you start making things worse than they are - you have no one to tell you that your thoughts are unfounded, then they compound to create even more ridiculous thoughts.

You have to realize that, and it will help you move away from that thinking into something which may be more rational.

This post was edited by bnrhodes2 on Sep 10 2014 02:24am

if his life was balanced he wouldnt be so upset about it. This is like, common sense

This post was edited by prednam on Sep 10 2014 03:13am

Doesn't make any sense to me. Unless it's just because I don't know the whole story. But you keep saying "you don't have anybody" but you said you had planned to take over your dads business? Clearly you have your dad. If you have somewhere to live and obviously a means to the internet. You have more than a lot of people. So a girl doesn't want to be with you anymore. Welcome to the real world. Sorry for being insensitive but you're making your situation out to be way worse than it really is. And the day you stop looking for pity/pitying yourself for your past failures is when you'll get better. These people won't feed your pity party forever.

not trying to pity party

I have followed my heart to do what i think is right all my life

it has gotten me no where in this world so far

I can live this life perfectly no problem, I just have no career to show for my life. Then I dont like being alone, No girl cuz not doing anything with life. Back to zero life.

back to being a child playing video games except school is over. Im an adult and should be working in a career. Not still pursuing one or just starting to pursue one.

I am tired of dating and trying to play games with girls just to sit down and talk.
I am tired of people telling me to work for my dad. You try to work with someone you never talk with and the whole time your with him, trying to keep your cool because just the sight of him angers you. I do not wish to become like my father, alone and hates the world and unproductive. I see myself acting like that all my life because im suppose to always be around him and work for him. I rub off on the people im surrounded by and i turn into a person I dont like around him. You try working with that. When i was on my own in the mountains i turned into a person i liked, when i came back it was like turning into a child again and hating my father all over again. becoming anti-social and all alone.


Cheers for this night