Maybe you need to do it for other reasons. If I did it only for looks I'd hate it. But tracking and seeing how much I can push each 12-16 weeks and seeing numbers go up on paper is enjoyable.

Mornings I only walk 1.5 hours from 6 till 7:30 during that time I listen to audiobooks, wakes my brain and body up for work.

Strength training is 5x per week in the evenings.

It all has purpose.

I work 40 minamum per week but some months 280 hours per month minamum and still make it once if not twice a day. That's almost 10 hours of work a day everyday plus weekends. You sound like you're sand baging yourself.

This post was edited by SBD on Oct 23 2017 03:11pm

"I think one of the saddest things to see is lifters with amazing potential disappear. This
happens for a number of reasons for sure but one of the worst, in my opinion, is that they
finally hit opposition and can't handle it.
Everyone who's lifted remembers what it was like to make 30,40,80kg jumps on their total
every meet. Most, I would guess, remember the first meet when they totalled less than their
last meet. That is the turning point, that is the hill. Some people get to run on flat ground
longer and make good progress but at some point you hit your hill.
You decide if you gut down and climb it or turn around and go home. Me? I'll be out climbing
my hill or planning how to climb it faster or more efficiently. I know I'll slip and slide back at times
and I know that I'll dig in and push my way back up. The view from the top is worth it I hear."

-Ryan Stinn

This post was edited by Aube on Oct 23 2017 04:18pm

Self loathing coupled with wanting to be attractive to the opposite sex

Well said (well quoted).

I've had a few people ask why I still play the game (basketball) and still lift @39. They know I've had a lot of injuries (some of them being "career-ending" for mortals), but that I'm still pretty good, too. So it's almost like they're in disbelief, asking for advice. And I just tell them that I love the game because it challenges me. I'll compete until I can't compete. And I enjoy the discipline of training. Feeling strong is a good feeling. I believe that most people tuck their tails under their legs when adversity hits. They don't take risks, they don't want to get exposed, they don't look at consequences, and they essentially don't want to improve. When people get knocked down, they should just get back up. It may hurt a bit, but you can dust off. What can you still do now? Don't you want to find out?

I just keep going back to when I was a kid. Kids fall down. Some will sit and cry a while to get attention, some will call it quits and go inside, and some will get up and keep playing. I don't know if that's predictive of what people will do in life, but the analogy is spot on.

I'm not motivated, it's a habit now.

This post was edited by dirTyMan on Oct 24 2017 05:21pm

Sums it all up. Not being a freaking cookiecutter porn addict coffee drinking pill popping wannabe

kind of rich coming from you

I be fucking hoes n popping pillies

Whats wrong with porn and coffee?

You got a minute?

It's a Big Lenny catchphrase. Porn leads to weird shit when the normal things don't cut it anymore.