im sober for last 37 hours i ran out of money and my mom wont buy me any lol

ut i got a 3k check clearing tmrw so ill get fukd up tmw

gonna buy somenew clcothes too

wih i could get some weed
oh gotta update my antivirus too goin crazy from all the porn proly got a virus

I got you on weed bro

any other good medicine for high

i ant do weed anymore i alrey have a charge iowa is srs as fark about weed. if i get another charge ill go to jail and when i get out ill probably kill myself before my fathers disowns me

Why don't u just straighten up before it gets to that?

i have trobule being with myself. i have very negative and depressive tendencies. read about 'borderline personality disorder'
i have a general feeling of loneliness and emptiness 99% of the time. i scored very high in paranoid pd and schizotypal pd also.
i am extremely sensitive to environmental chages and have very turbulent emotions. thinking of a painful event in my life makes the feelings/emotions associated with that event as real and acute as when it first ahppendd. i also feel intense emotions where any emotional response occurs. instead of being a little upset i feel rage, suicidal depression instead of minor sadness, etc.


so i use substanes to not feel painful things. not an issue of cleaning myself up and learning other ways to cope. these are deeply inherent personality characteristics that are lrgely uncontrollable. i am workin with a good therapist but we're still figuring it out

Glad to hear you're working on it

Try not to over think things man. In the grand scheme of things most of the little shit in life doesn't matter.