Appreciate the responses bros.

I dont know what it is, but this sparked a flame of motivation inside of me.

I got 900x10 legpress up and 260x5 on squat both new PR's for me. As im getting that last rep in an image of her appears in my mind and all other doubts go away and i come exploding up like no fucks given.

I had an entire cycle of anabolics planned out. i was literally going to order them this week and my family was trying to persuade me not to do it but i was ignoring them. I take today as a sign to leave that shit alone forever. Its crazy how the death of someone close to you really puts things into perspective. Granted Im sure some if not most of you have had buddies/loved ones pass and you might know what im talking about.

Are u saying the loss of a loved one has given you anabolic strength not unlike how a saiyen gets power the same way?

So u don't need to cycle, u can just channel your sadness for the same result?

its absolutely genius. my god ladsy i think hes got it!!!

precisely

RIP

And people believe in God. That really is sad, it's always a sad story when people die. Sorry bro.

Thanks for the words. Yeah. God LOL crock of SHIT. Largest and most successful corporate scheme imo.. atleast that what it appears to have manifested into.. who the fucks knows? Theres hardly a reliable media source anymore

im so sorry M9.