I was locked up for only 8 hours tonight but i went fucking insane.

After i got off the phone from an argument with my parents....i showed up to my friends and some fucker pissed me off. To make it really short......

Had 4 cop cars there trying to control me. They didnt take out there guns cause i was unarmed so i straight up resisted arrest for a whole 5+ minutes. Just throwing officers around. My whole body is fucked up and i can barely move my neck.

I regret it but my adrenaline made me a different person. I couldnt even think about the consequences and i didnt give a fuck if i died or went to jail.

I don't really know what triggered it. My best friend died recently but that was not on my mind when i freaked out. I'm so much built in anger that i have no idea what to do anymore.

I swear to god i was going to keep that fucker in a choke until he died. They threw stuff at my face just so i would let go of him. I think i fucked up my arm cause i latched on to the guys neck so damn tight while ppl were trying to get my elbow away from his throat.

Oh well.

has anyone ever flipped out like that? It feels like i blacked out because i felt like a totally different person in the police car. All the cops were cool with me after.

Idk if this is like a point of no return or what but ive never done that before.

That little semi shit talker ended up hiding behind a fucking tv after he was so confident that i was "wrong and a pussy"

fucking little cowards can't even handle anything.

This post was edited by expressaa on Dec 23 2014 03:05am

i'm still fucking shaking for some reason. It's not even cold.

Do you guys think i should seek help?

Like what kind of help? psychologist?

sigh*

This post was edited by expressaa on Dec 23 2014 03:07am

A good jsp vent should calm the nerves

That might be why i'm posting this. I need someone to talk to so i can calm down i guess? i have no idea.

I was out of control and i didnt drink at all. I'm never like this.

Fuck, man.......fuck.

Fuck

is this fingerling

sure

If i could take my own life without hurting my family...I'd do it.

That shouldnt make me crazy. It seems like i've brought a lot of people down with me the past 3 months and they were all close to me.

I can careless about what my friends and gf thinks about me dying. I feel fucked up.

Oh well. Oh fucking well. You guys enjoy your internet. At least you actually enjoy being online.

Good for all of you.

I need fucking help.

Go to sleep bro, youll wake up refreshed (maybe)

That roid rage

OP must not be black, huh?