Quote (Firaga @ Jan 5 2015 02:19pm)

i want true love not just s3x....

Quote (Firaga @ Jan 5 2015 03:30pm)

on the real tho

i do'nt think any of you have been alone for as long as i have so none of u can relate

can u imagine... spending holidays alone for past decade

can u know what it feels like to be afraid to go hang out with friends who all have gfs and talk about s3x and i have nothing to say

can u know what it feels like to go to some ceremony and literally all of the friends there have gfs they bring and i have no one

i can't even remember the last time i went to movie theatre

not to mention the fact that i have never had dinner with a girl before

what really kills my mind is that the things i want in life are these simple kind of things. i have no great ambitions or desire to become a billionaire, or president, or to become world-famous. i just want the simple things like being able to go on dates and stuff and to know that i am not alone. yet it is outrageous to me that i cannot have even that, just becuz im ugly and socially inadequate. i am the most awkward human in the world, i only have 2 friends that i feel 100% comfortable with and that only happened becuz those 2 friends looked over my awkwardness and kept with me even if i was awkward and socially retarded. it took me 2 years for me to completely open up to them.

why am i like this? why was i born like this? if it takes me 2 years to open up JUST to be a friend, then how much longer is it gonna take me to open up to a girl, or which girl is even going to have enough patience to deal with my bullshit existence for over 2 years, and even then, which girl is going to accept my feelings when i do open up?

i've SRSLY liked (and i mean seriously) about 7 girls and they all said no, and it's obvious. i am ugly, i am not funny, i do not bring anything to the table as a person, and they won't want to have a bf like that.

tl;dr: my own personality is a flaw in every aspect. i have accepted that there is nothing that can save me. i will not get a gf tomorrow, or the day after. and it shall remain like this for maybe until i die.

literally the only thing that keeps me living on is the fact that i hate feeling hunger, and i eat just to quench my hunger, not becuz i actually want to live. i do'nt even have anything to live for

Quote (Firaga @ Jan 5 2015 04:35pm)

like i said

virginity is only the tip of the iceberg

Quote (Firaga @ Jan 5 2015 03:30pm)

on the real tho

i do'nt think any of you have been alone for as long as i have so none of u can relate

can u imagine... spending holidays alone for past decade

can u know what it feels like to be afraid to go hang out with friends who all have gfs and talk about s3x and i have nothing to say

can u know what it feels like to go to some ceremony and literally all of the friends there have gfs they bring and i have no one

i can't even remember the last time i went to movie theatre

not to mention the fact that i have never had dinner with a girl before

what really kills my mind is that the things i want in life are these simple kind of things. i have no great ambitions or desire to become a billionaire, or president, or to become world-famous. i just want the simple things like being able to go on dates and stuff and to know that i am not alone. yet it is outrageous to me that i cannot have even that, just becuz im ugly and socially inadequate. i am the most awkward human in the world, i only have 2 friends that i feel 100% comfortable with and that only happened becuz those 2 friends looked over my awkwardness and kept with me even if i was awkward and socially retarded. it took me 2 years for me to completely open up to them.

why am i like this? why was i born like this? if it takes me 2 years to open up JUST to be a friend, then how much longer is it gonna take me to open up to a girl, or which girl is even going to have enough patience to deal with my bullshit existence for over 2 years, and even then, which girl is going to accept my feelings when i do open up?

i've SRSLY liked (and i mean seriously) about 7 girls and they all said no, and it's obvious. i am ugly, i am not funny, i do not bring anything to the table as a person, and they won't want to have a bf like that.

tl;dr: my own personality is a flaw in every aspect. i have accepted that there is nothing that can save me. i will not get a gf tomorrow, or the day after. and it shall remain like this for maybe until i die.

literally the only thing that keeps me living on is the fact that i hate feeling hunger, and i eat just to quench my hunger, not becuz i actually want to live. i do'nt even have anything to live for

Quote (Firaga @ Jan 5 2015 05:30pm)

on the real tho

i do'nt think any of you have been alone for as long as i have so none of u can relate

can u imagine... spending holidays alone for past decade

can u know what it feels like to be afraid to go hang out with friends who all have gfs and talk about s3x and i have nothing to say

can u know what it feels like to go to some ceremony and literally all of the friends there have gfs they bring and i have no one

i can't even remember the last time i went to movie theatre

not to mention the fact that i have never had dinner with a girl before

what really kills my mind is that the things i want in life are these simple kind of things. i have no great ambitions or desire to become a billionaire, or president, or to become world-famous. i just want the simple things like being able to go on dates and stuff and to know that i am not alone. yet it is outrageous to me that i cannot have even that, just becuz im ugly and socially inadequate. i am the most awkward human in the world, i only have 2 friends that i feel 100% comfortable with and that only happened becuz those 2 friends looked over my awkwardness and kept with me even if i was awkward and socially retarded. it took me 2 years for me to completely open up to them.

why am i like this? why was i born like this? if it takes me 2 years to open up JUST to be a friend, then how much longer is it gonna take me to open up to a girl, or which girl is even going to have enough patience to deal with my bullshit existence for over 2 years, and even then, which girl is going to accept my feelings when i do open up?

i've SRSLY liked (and i mean seriously) about 7 girls and they all said no, and it's obvious. i am ugly, i am not funny, i do not bring anything to the table as a person, and they won't want to have a bf like that.

tl;dr: my own personality is a flaw in every aspect. i have accepted that there is nothing that can save me. i will not get a gf tomorrow, or the day after. and it shall remain like this for maybe until i die.

literally the only thing that keeps me living on is the fact that i hate feeling hunger, and i eat just to quench my hunger, not becuz i actually want to live. i do'nt even have anything to live for

Quote (NINJAslit @ Jan 5 2015 04:42pm)

You're depressing as fuck.. The fact that you can iterate it does not help.. You're actually depressing the d2jsp community with your bullshit. It's not even a good troll. You give up everything on the slightest cause. Then again if you had any ambition in chasing females you would probably end up on the sex offender list. Stop worrying about love and think about yourself. True love is a fairytale. This is reality. Get money. It does buy happiness.

Quote (DM13 @ Jan 5 2015 04:41pm)

Quote (jcamp @ Jan 5 2015 04:43pm)

just because things didn't work out with a certain amount of girls doesn't mean you won't ever have one
people don't usually believe it but there really is somebody for EVERYONE. if some of those girls can't look past your flaws there will be someone who will

that doesn't mean to stop trying. the biggest reason about people not pullin girls is lack of confidence, that's where your 'awkwardness' and everything comes from

learn to give a fuck less what people think of you, socialize more, show people how you truly are, if they don't like it, fuck them, if they do or don't care, those are the people you need to hold close in your life.

im prolly not gonna be much help but hope it does, gl m8

Quote (SX-XiP @ Jan 5 2015 04:44pm)

http://www.cultnoise.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/08/tumblr_na96vqwsIW1sm1itvo1_500-300x168.jpg

If you think you're awkward/socially retarded and need a personality then own it and improve yourself. You're already a step ahead if you recognize your flaws. Join some clubs, get some new hobbies/activities, talk to random people. Do stuff outside of academia/gaming. The more you socialize the better you'll get and stop being so hard on yourself.

Quote (Firaga @ Jan 5 2015 05:54pm)

i already realized that it's fairy tale. i used to think that if i liked a girl, as long as i was 100% honest with myself and her, then it would work out for the best. but nope. love is a business. we all look for a fair or a good trade for ourselves, hence the terminology 'standards'



lol...



u know... i feel like complete shit when im with a group of ppl and im the awkward guy and i seem to be ruining the mood for others. i feel like i just drain the 'fun' out of everything no matter what i do. ever since about 1 year ago, i just ignored all and any invitations to anything becuz i know that i will come home feeling shittier than usual at the end of the day. better off for everyone else if i am not there, even if i havent seen my good friend in a long time



i started my masters program 1 year ago. i am done in 5 months. i have also decided to go all the way to PhD. ever since i made that decision, i have been prepared to stay virgin for another 3-4 years, for my academic ambitions. recently turned down 80k salary starting job becuz money without anyone special to spend it on, is worth nothing for me

Quote (Firaga @ Jan 5 2015 03:54pm)

i started my masters program 1 year ago. i am done in 5 months. i have also decided to go all the way to PhD. ever since i made that decision, i have been prepared to stay virgin for another 3-4 years, for my academic ambitions. recently turned down 80k salary starting job becuz money without anyone special to spend it on, is worth nothing for me

Quote (Firaga @ Jan 5 2015 04:54pm)

u know... i feel like complete shit when im with a group of ppl and im the awkward guy and i seem to be ruining the mood for others. i feel like i just drain the 'fun' out of everything no matter what i do. ever since about 1 year ago, i just ignored all and any invitations to anything becuz i know that i will come home feeling shittier than usual at the end of the day. better off for everyone else if i am not there, even if i have seen my good friend in a long time