Quote (rawwwrr @ Aug 9 2016 03:36am)

ye i don't really consider myself special in all of this. it's just that i had a pretty shitty time growing up with the people i call my "parents" and "friends". it was the classic alcoholic dad and emotionally unstable mom combo with a seasoning of domestic abuse and neglect thrown into the mix. the eastern bloc special.

nowadays i just feel like and awkward turd that can't emotionally connect with anyone no matter how hard he tries. at least i'm good looking so i can at least get laid if a human relationship is too much to ask of me.

Quote (rawwwrr @ Aug 8 2016 05:46pm)

than kowing you weren't good enough, because at some point you'd abandoned the one thing that gave your life purpose.

yet nothing also feels better than actually trying to rectify that mistake.

stop putting yourself down.

otherwise you'll end up trying to patch yourself up with fake things, and it'll ruin you even more.

i know it's sometimes incredibly hard, damn near impossible even, to see through all the shit that you've covered yourself in.

as cliche as it sounds, it's actually never too late for you. you're better than the others. you're actually talented. you're not fake, and you know it's true. everyone knows it's true. you just stopped because you were complacent, and you let all the shitters get ahead of you. now you whine like it's the world's fault that you're where you're at.

fucking lol.

/i sometimes need to write this crap so i can get some perspective. sorry if it annoys you.