sucks. i just woke up out of a 20 hour xanax coma, thinking of taking some more since i dn't have shit today

Do it

friend is moving to thailad tuesday so there was go away party in park - had been binge drinking for a week, drinked heavily and too plenty of 3-meo-pcp 4f-mph a bit of suspicious amph (maybe) a buff from joint (first time in months) chainsmoking from late noon until early mornining and didnt eat. after bar closed (was surprised could even go to the bur but was wearing sunglasses and was somewhat high so was very surprisingly relaxed)
then we went for a small house to afterparty - extreme anxiety kicked in and was ran out of cigs... felt like disconnected suffering cockroach understandably but took massive dose of 3-meo-pcp...
after coming down from it felt like surreal hardocore god simulation ( seemed lke cartoonish theater ) kicked in since reached state of connectioness to everyting and if id feel negative emotions someone would kill me during the trip to home so (or some cruel person / spirit just for sake of it) after 30-1h hours found my glasses again and was fuck it... lets go
a lot more to it but nvm

bloody hell, you need to look after yourself better m8

sounds like a good time.. i guess? hope you're well bebeb. sometimes it's good to keep your feet on the ground though.

ill try to take better care and taking antipsych and 10mg dose of melatonin for few days just in case

was great time until the comedown @ house but pretty amazing for a while during and onset of the trip, until it turned to ordeal

pretty shamed of the drama i caused there but could have been worse

bummer that this too some setback but glad that psychosis didn't really last

atleast i've got summer vacation so i can rest and recover some

cheers

you're a worry bebeb..

no worry this time i think maybe
hows xanax treating you? id have hard times coming down so often from it

usually fine, i just took too much this time & thought i'd turned myself into a retard

I snort my xanny bars whole