LOL

sertraline helped me when i was depressed, it took the edge off

fear turns to hate

read awareness by anthony de mello

that's not always true.

find the underlying causes
what are the things that make you unhappy?
start thinking about these things a lot and totally changing them
can be hard when depressed but nobody said it was easy eh

i'm not really depressed anymore. i also can't change the things that are causing this frustration.

Is there only one thing bothering you? That's hard to believe. I bet you can change it somehow.
Does it involve one person in particular?

yes it does. she is a neurotic mess (literally fucking crazy, more so than any girl i've ever met). she perceives me to be one as well and i'm sure she hates me even though she denies it. all our conversations have ended up in fights. i'm afraid i might never get the chance to clear my conscience with her.

now that i think about it i'm pretty sure i don't know anything about her and i'm afraid she might be hiding some skeletons in her closet.

This post was edited by rawwwrr on May 18 2016 08:27am

tell her exactly this but take out the bits that would probably offend her.
if you tell her calmly and it never goes anywhere, then you might never get to clear your mind.
in that case I'd say just get out of there. I've been in a situation that I would describe very similar to this and it took a long time to be happy again because of it, but boy am I glad that I got away from her.

we've been done for a long time now but i still feel like there' some loose ends.