Quote (rusclaudiualin @ Jul 18 2011 02:43am)
Good morning. Today I am feeling really good and its a weird thing... I can't belive the remorses are gone so fast but maybe the things I did yesterday made me realise I must move on and improve my life.
You can't always have what you want and I am sure my boy will be safe with her but I so hope It won't hate me later. I will do my best to explain him that at least I tryed to be a father.
So after a weird sleep I got myself thinking why should I not improve my life rather then destroy it and suffer? She made her call and I was humiliated enough by her family. Last thing I would want is to live my future years in an environment where I am just a black sheep. I am more of a lion type and I can't be tained in such a manner. I know I am a good man and I should improve and evolve into something beautiful not destructive.
Meanwhile I will continue my transmuting, I think I will start a pc debugging software and hardware training to get a diploma for this even If I know how to do it I might learn new things, I'll start gym again and get my sweet month of vacations near the sea in a super sexy place with massage, drinks and freedom. Ill get my brother-in-law's laptop with me so I will chill muting on the beach.
It's time for reconstruction as the only trusted person is myself and it should stay like this for the rest of my life.
Have a good day.
Awesome for me to read this Rus. Life does go on and you have to make the best of what you can.
