i tried to use the automatic recovery and they denied it, but with no real steps forward. is there any other way to go about it or am i just doomed to never have a e-mail tied to this account? made this account almost 12 years ago and i have no idea which email was used because i tried all the ones i remember ever using and the email change system denied every one.

Unfortunately, there is no other way than to recover / change e-mail than an account recovery.

is there a way to completely delete the account so i can recreated it with the same name?

No, it is not possible to delete an account. The only way is to keep trying to recover the email. Providing more information. This is not an automatic system, each request is manually processed by the administrator