the honest truth is this, i have 2 companies in real life and i am addicted to path of exile and making trades here.
i could buy any amount of fg i want, but i enjoy making trades since old days of dota, diablo, etc
i tought if i can lock my gold i wont focus on grinding anymore because i have no motivation of building currency to trade here :))
sounds silly, but this gives me joy.
i can do big amount of money per hour but i go in gaming.
at this moment honestly i dont want to have fg locked, i need to find balance on my own.
This is excellent self awareness. Many people have an addiction to posting on forums for attention whether they realize it or not. It's the same condition as gambling, substance abuse or whatever-always chasing that dragon. The actions are just a symptom. The real problem is deeper and the wild west of internet forums is the wrong place to seek help. I say this with peace and love.