Sometimes I feel like I really hate my youngest child. Then I feel bad or upset with myself for feeling resentful towards him. He's like little demon on crack stirring up a major poop storm all day. Hes almost 5 but stuck in the terrible 2's. Just this last week he smashed a ton of glass antiques and collectibles and 3 separate occasions. he cut the cats whiskers off, stabbed a huge hole in the pool, broke my 65inch tv, set my phone in a cup of water. threw his brothers phone in the pool. he's constantly hitting everyone and calling them bad names. He also uses the world and my house as his own personal bathroom even though he was totally potty trained for the longest time. I talked to his doctor to get a reference to get him into counseling or see if he has a disorder or something. The doctor says I should wait until after he gets his tonsils taken out to see if he gets better. Like I don't think anyone truly understands how bad my kid is. I have two other kids 5 and 11 and they are all around pretty good kids. It sucks because his behavior is affecting his siblings too. I mean they get hit by him so much they both lock themselves in their bedrooms most the time. I find myself staying up super late to enjoy time without him. he is tedious. I'm pretty sure my son is the Devil.

applesauce everywhere and it's only 10am! On a side note, I'm going to try and spend more time with my youngest as someone suggested on here. Wish me luck....

Yesterday went a lot better then expected. I mean he wasn't completely awful and nothing got broke. Today I take him to the doctors to see if he has Vitiligo. I pray he doesn't. With his attitude problem on these white spots all over him he's going to have trouble making friends when he starts school. Which I'm not sure if he's ready for. Technically he wasn't old enough (short by a few days) and I signed wavier.

Turns out he has Vitiligo which also means he has an auto immune disease. Now we have to run blood tests for all sorts of things and last time the lab tech gave up on us because he just wouldn't cooperate. Now I'm worried about my little demon.

Omg he grabbed a bottle of pink paint from my craft station and runs off with it. I get up to go take it from him only to find it all over my floor, walls, and fridge. Then he killed my favorite pillow by picking big chunks out of the memory foam. Threw a rock at my ankle too and thank God he missed, because it was huge, and he whipped it.

lol kid was probably just being mean to his sister, but he made me smile when he told her he wanted to hold my hand instead of hers because "Mom's more beautiful"

The kid is trying to eat me out of house and home. I ended up installing a lock on the fridge. Never thought I would do that, but here I am.

Ok so my son has to get bloodwork done for his Autoimmune to see if he has any other problems associated with it besides Vitiligo. Last time I tried this the lab tech gave up on him, so I tried to schedule the test with his pediatrician instead of the outsourced lab. I had an appointment yesterday and they called me while I was in mid commute to the office and cancelled. Apparently, the lab tech had left. I rescheduled for today at 9am when they opened. Around 7am he was eating and banana and drinking pop, about I half hour later I caught him drinking pop again. He is not supposed to have anything to eat or drink for 8 hours prior to the test. I had to call and cancel the appointment for today and reschedule again with the outsource lab because they open earlier, and I can't seem to keep my child out of the fridge. Hopefully they have a more competent lab tech this time.

Blood work went well. He jerked his arm away at first and yanked the needle out. then we told him he has to stay still, or the nurse would have to keep poking him. After that he's like "I'm gonna be brave and stay still" and he did. he did such a good job. I'm proud of my little poop head. He has actually been pretty good the past few days (short from fighting with his brother). Hope he keeps it up.

He broke the toilet again. second time this month. Hubby has to take it apart to see what's stuck in there. last time it was a whole compact of makeup.

Also, I need headphones to hear myself think. Screaming and fighting all day.

Why did I think Kinetic sand would be a good idea? WTF it's barley better than slime.

My youngest and this little girl that's staying with me right now keep sneaking outside and going in the neighbors' yards. Yesterday they were heading for a pool and today I found them in the neighbor's car. I about had a panic attack looking for them today. Now I have to go install alarms on my doors so they can't sneak outside.