so today i went over to omaha for an appoinment that too about 3 hours i got there an hour early with the ride service i use and then i got stuck for 2 hours afterward because well... i dont know the reason they made me wait 2 hours. but today i have definitely been stressed for sure. and you know what if im being honest i just want to cry and cuddle that big amazing guy in the room down the hall because he just seems to make my problems melt away even just for a little bit but he's streaming and has literally never been the romantic type! literally all i want is to feel wanted!! i want to hear that he brags about me to his friends or that im even talked about but not in a bad way! i want to be accepted i want to feel like my whole fricking world is just constantly falling! i want to be enough! but i know i will probably never be enough. but i can get over that eventually and be happy im even thought of even just minutely.