I never want to seem like Im just going after a pity party but i believe that speaking about this is not only healthy for me but could be beneficial for others here is D2Jsp... That being said, i started having seizures around 7 years ago ad the information provided to me at the time wasnt all that great or helpful...

Seizures can come in many forms. Some can be attributed to a genetic disorder, some to drug use, or even to stress. You have different types of seizures as well... Grand Mal, Petit Mal, Focal seizures, just to name a few. I actually suffer with all three. Grand Mal seizures involve a full body reaction and most of the time you black out during but feel it later. These types are ones i have just last night. When you start having one all you notice is that your body is about to have something really wrong happen and you cant control it. you start jerking to one side or you strain to the extreme in a different way, always causing your body to expel all the air in your lungs.Your face goes through different color changes, white , red, purple, and the worst blue. I have had all these happen and ended up having my heart stop because of Grand Mal seizures.

The others are serious as well but as of right now i honestly feel so tired and worn out from having 2 Grand Mals that i can barely keep my eyes open. So i will just tell you what happened to me last night and continue this as soon as i can.

Last night i was wathing TV with my children as i do most of the time at night. upon finishing the movie i ended up having a seizure. The seizure being a Grand Mal made me black out. When you black out from them and wake up right after, most of the time you arent even thinking and your body goes into fight-or-flight mode. I ended up stumbling outside the house and fell off my porch getting multiple cuts, scrapes, and bruises as well as a broken big toe on my left foot. Going to the hospital i was stil coming out of it and i felt like i couldnt think, completely confused. Couldnt remember anything honestly. But by the time i got inside the hospital i was able to process more and help the doctors and nurses treat me. They did and i went home, but unfortunately i wasnt home for long before i had another Grand Mal. Now its right after 8:30 AM for me. I got back from the hospital 30 mins. ago. Im tired, hurting, and completely drained so i will end this here for now. Everyone have a good day.

That very night i ended up having 5 more seizures... After having done so i was told i had lost my DL for the next 6 months at least. This affects my ability to hold down a job as well as do everyday things like go to the store, or really anywhere else. On top of that i have to stay around someone 24/7 for at least the next 2 or 3 weeks to make sure that i dont go into another round of Grand Mals. To top it all off going after disability to offset the fact that i am not able to work is more than likely something i will not get... For someone to get disability for epilepsy most of the time you have to have a seizure every day. Once a week may get you diability but having them less than that you more than likely will not get it.

For another thing, getting hired when you let someone know you have epilepsy is about 10 times harder because of your inability to drive and the liability that you could cause for the place of business. If you have to drive for work you may as well not even try. Using power tools or climbing a ladder? Not a chance! You could hurt yourself or someone else and we dont want to pay for that. And i honestly cant blame them... If someone could have a seizure at any time without warning that means they may produce good work but at some point they wont be able to do the job.

Having children of my own makes this even more difficult because of the inability to do the things for them that they deserve.My only escape from the depression this all causes is this wonderful game... D2 has been there for me like an old friend. A friend that doesnt judge me for having this disability, doesnt see me in any different light than it ever has. And the people of this site i see them as great friends as well, because the people of D2JSP dont judge me for this problem. You all treat me the same as anyone else and you always have. THANK YOU fellow JSPers! You have no idea what that means to me...