I've been receiving some PM's from old friends on D2jsp asking where I've been. My grandfather had passed away on Christmas Night. He was battling stage four lung cancer and was 85 years old. I loved him very much and he was the strongest man I had known for my entire life. He was an Army veteran that owned his own barber shop and electronics store, and he always went out of his way to help others including his family. He was a true hero and a great role model for me.
It was very hard on me this Holiday season and I wasn't using this site from December 26 to February 7.
Like I've done in the past for various reasons (this one being the worst situation), I typically will delete my profile altogether, including my friends list, whenever I need time off because in case I come back at some point it helps me to feel like I can have a fresh start. It makes me feel a little better is all. It's like moving and transferring schools if you know what that feels like.
Just a few days ago I returned to D2jsp only because I still play some games as a great escape of some sorts (Marvel Heroes 2016 mostly), and I enjoy blogging a little bit. I'm definitely not posting that much though. Maybe once or twice per day. I prefer to just relax and listen to music videos as well. Too stressful on me to have any debates or really post around the different sub-forums like I used to.
I'm not really sure how much longer I want to use D2jsp - this has been somewhat of an addictive hobby for me over the years (since October of 2009) - but from the few caring friends I came across on here I just wanted to say thank you. I appreciate your caring thoughts more than you'll ever know.
Some days can be tough for me just to force a smile or try to find something to enjoy, but when I do find those precious moments I tend to embrace them the best I can. Even if you may not realize it. Thank you for all that you have meant to me and all that you have done for me.
I may not always have the right answers to give people, especially when it comes to advise about anything in life, but I've always had a strong passion for what I believe in. All I've ever tried to do was have fun and to make others smile and feel good on here. In the process I forgot that I needed to make myself happy first and foremost.
I'm one of those guys that like to please everybody but that's impossible to do and life is simply too short.
Some people will always hate you regardless. Just embrace the ones who appreciate you and be happy.
I'll try to hang around a little more often. If nothing else just for the few friends I actually made on here.
I don't want to let anybody down. I'm sorry for leaving when I did. I had my reasons and I hope you respect that.
This post was edited by Madmartigan on Feb 9 2016 10:49pm