Ive been in relationships and sexual active most of my teen and young adult life. I have been cheated on deceived etc. And I have done the same to most of my partners. I don't know what it's like to be single. And it seems I always think the grass is greener on the other side. Usually it is not. I've always felt very lustful of others. Some I pursue and others I don't. I know that cheating is wrong and hurtful but I don't know how to change or redirect my feelings. I know the saying once a cheater always a cheater but I don't want to be that. Having said that. I find it hard to get out of relationships because I feel a sense of intitlement towards other people feelings. They never let go easy. And I can never forget my feelings for someone even long after we have gone our separate ways. I really want to settle down and be a good woman but I always find my demons coming back to haunt me. I am my own worst enemy. What do I do.