You're fired

so, last minute surprise road trip to Michigan to surprise my Grandpa & Grandmas.
hehehe.

Grandpa extended the invitation to come over for easter and he'll pay for gas,
mom was like, hmm, I don't know.

then she really started thinking about it
and Yup,

Grandpa and the Grandmas don't know we are coming so we will just show up at their doorstep.
heheheh


two easter dinners though ><

One at grandpa's and one at grandma's.


arrg i'm gonna be stuffed.


anyways, no promise of internet .
so, Might not be posting for a few days.

So I leave for like 5 days
And my guild is gone.

Okay.

I went to bed at 2.

OMG I'm so tired.

Anthone woke me up like 5 mins ago.

I have shit to do today.

Don't feel like jumping in the car and going down town today. ><

fuck cpcc

errr.

i guess they have too many campuses to function.

I have to go to the FARTHEST campus from me...
just to go to school...
and I don't think I can do it, not mentally, but physcially.

My ather is an asshole

And he's making Quinn in to the same monster he is.

Quinn won't even tell mom to her face, that he wants to leave.
He has father do it for him.

Then e starts saying shit about me how I'm
Manipulative, a whore, no one can love me

And he says "you're my daughter, I HAVE to love you"

You don't have to love anyone...
He just feels obligated to, or that would make him look bad.

Spent the day with Anthone.
It was nice to get away.

I can't stop thinking about the events o last night.

It makes me hate my life even more.

Quinn is being an ass
I have no future
My family is falling apart.


It's times like this that make me want to end it, all.

I've been considering picking up drinking.

There is bottles of hard whiskey in the cupboard above the microwave.

Like maybe it will go all the way, the pain and everything...
I'll drown my blood in alcohol.

But if I do ever decide to drink, I will/hope it will never be for an emotional problem
Because that's how habits and addictions form.

Momma and I are going to the Prom dress thing...

I'm kinda excited
but mom doesnt feel like going...

its a fucking 4 hour event
and there's going to be a BUNCH of black people.

The ONLY plus to this is that
the black people down here are "thick" and they got hips, and booooootaaaays
so, the competition for dresses isn't gonna be that bad
ANNNND
we ALLLLLLL know the only people who would donate dresses are the skinny white folk.

so we can try xx

I gotta dress!

It's green... Not my favorite color, but it's alright.

The issue is the tie ><

I saw the host today.
Obviously the book> movie

But they left out alot of parts

But it was alright I guess.


The prom project was a wonderful experience.
When I put on that green dress, everyone was looking at me.

I was 1 of 4 white girls there lol