Rest in peace,
Ray Ray.

You just graduated, but it was your time.
I accept that.

im hurt.

Don't worry Ray ray bang all dem chicks up in heaven,

I really enjoy spending the mornings with my uncle.


Anthone said I made him the best sandwhich yesterday for lunch on sourdough bread.
and i make him breakfast everymorning.
He told me thank you , and he appreciates it.

which made me happy.

I made pumpkin muffins!
from a box though, cause its not pumpkin season, mother bought 7 boxes of pumpkin bread mix
so, i just added milkk to it, so hopefully, PUMPKIN MUFFINS!

Jorge, Ray Ray's brother without blood raised 800 dollars to visit his funeral in 3 days.
I'm so happy for Jorge- So I typed him something....


Jorge , I am so happy you reach your goal of $800 dollars to attend RayRay's funeral. Though financially I couldn't help- you have no idea how happy I am for you.
I couldn't attend my grandmother's funeral, and it took a huge toll on me, the lack of closure is taking many years to fill and is still attempting to fill,
when you are at his funeral, please just do me a favor I know you wont take it lightly but really try to find a majority of your peace with it - it is a unique type of peace I've been longing for,
that sometimes yearly visiting a grave just doesn't truly fulfill. go there, and have no pressure or burden you feel like you are obligated to carry.
I'm devastated for your loss, but happy for the opportunities you've gained.
I'm pretty sure he's "stylin" on you in heaven xo

I wish painrelievers took all the pain away.

I want to have a tea party and dress up as a princess.

I don’t think people love me.
They love versions of me I have spun for them, versions of me they have construed in their minds.
The easy versions of me, the easy parts of me to love. Who’s going to love the girl that can’t stop crying?
The girl that hurts herself?
The girl that is losing control?
The girl that is so sad she can’t get out of bed?
The girl that keeps pushing everyone away?
Who’s going to love the monster in me, who’s going to love me now?

Anonymous

Kath if you ever need someone to talk to I am always here. I know people say this but, I will always make time for you. I hope you feel better. I can't stand seeing these posts!