One reason why I don't like going back through my blog pages is I find things that make me insanely upset.
For my future reference,
Omyh- pg 14

I walked to bilo today.


Everything that could have went WRong wheat wrong.

I ran in to father.

He was, ugh.



And it rained when I was walking home.

Okay not EVERYTHING went wrong. But
My two worst fears happened.



Anyways
Ran in to Jamerio, again and he asked for my numberr.

And Cailey is going to ask about that job & put in a good word.

So, I got some lentil soup.
and its pretty damn good

no, its not that campbells jazz

its like some vegan "good for the earth" kinda jazz.

and its just like how mommy makes it,
except instead of water, she uses chicken stock
which in essense is water but,
yeah.

I expect mutual respect.


I don't go around "liking" every picture with a guy's shirt off, or a muscular picture.

so, you shouldnt be going aruond "liking" every single girl's photo,
then, hiding it from me.


if it is to the point where it is hidden from me,
you know you are doing wrong.


1st time shame on you
2nd time shame on me
3rd time.
i'm too damn forgiving

skip count to the 7th time.

okay.


even though you promised me you wouldnt do it anymore.

poor me.




its not the fact that he was looking at other girls photos that pisses me off,
its the fact that i keep on askhim to stop, he says he will,
then he does it for a week,
then the next thing,
he keeps on doing it.


i'm just going to keep my conversations with him short.

My baby cut his hair.
His dreads are gone
I miss them.

It's gonna take me a while to get used to them again
But I'll be fine.

OLIVEGARDEN was decent
Mommy wanted to go there so I took her out.


WELL NOT REALLY.

Psh I got mom To order the most expensive thing on the menu
And it took her 30 mins to do that.

They screwed it up 3 times

Then they paid for her meal
So I didn't take her out.

OLIVE GARDEN TOOK MY MOMMA OUT.


I mean it was cool and all. But still.
So I got two new mugs.

Which made me happy
You know those pictures that have like an old drawing in it , one colored background
And something rude, inconsiderate, or blunt on it that jut makes you laugh
By someecards.com?


Yeah I got two of those in mug form

Something LIKE, not exactly so it won't be as funny lol but,


"Can you promise me that when our love lives are dead, that we will still watch romantic comedies tht make us feel worse?"
And
Some other one that related to work and reminds you, you are going to die.

Jamerio came over.
We hung out chilled, caught up with each other.
And flirted.

So, Jamerio tried to kiss me twice yesterday.
he succeeded one time.


I'm rather straight up with my opinions & questions

So, I asked him

why?

he said because he wanted to.


I don't really know.
It just surprised the hell out of me,
and I told anthone,

and he responded with the answer I expected from him

"I don't care"

Like, he didnt yell at me, he didnt distrust me
he said he is used to it.


all the things guys end up doing to me.

that I legitimately don't foresee.

idk,
i"m just rather confused.

I do not throw around the word love in a serious manner.

It took me over a year to tell Anthoné I loved him, and mean it.

After 2 months of barely knowing someone I just don't say it.

Anthoné's family reunion.

And I'm having some trouble on why to wear.
It's a BBQ picnic thing. Outside.



I hate eating outside.

I just hate it.
Bugs, flimsy ass paper plates, the sun.

Hate it.

So I have to pick an outfit that I won't over heat in,
But makes me not like a slut.



And, I'm craving chewy chocololate chip cookies.

Alright.

Reunion was boring
But the family loved me.

So at like 8 we went back to his house
Then to Walmart
And got
A vibrating ring
Condoms
And popcorn


We went to the cashier
And the guy was like

AND POPCORN Hhahahahhaahha


It was pretty funny.

Jamerio don't talk to me all day.
Wonder what's up~
So I sent him a text like 20 mins ago.

Idk I kinda care to be honest.
Like that's my boy right there.
Amazing listener, gg friend, an he was my first kiss.

So yeah.



Oh Anthone said the sweetest thing.

I forgot what I said
Somethin along the lines of I'm afraid you won't want me anymore because we have sex so often

And I incorporated marriage in some where
I forgot.

Anyways,
He said in reply.
"Sex is just the bonus, the real treat is having you as my girlfriend "


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