Anthone, my boyfriend of ~ 4 years, has been talking about marriage and bringing it up like every so often
"When do you want to get married" etc etc.
and its scary.
because I dont know.
I mean I love this man, I love him with all my heart, and its honestly true,
but just the thought of marriage scares me and excites me at the same time.
Maybe because its the unknown.
I mean, I never did it before, hopefully I'll never have to do it again.
But its a serious commitment, and
i'm honestly afraid of commitment.
It took me 2 years to tell Anthone I love him.
and he said it first, and my response, i litterally ran away.
Its not that I'm not ready, its just scary.
or maybe i'm not ready.
I mean, I dont really want to date other people,
Yeah i'm attracted to other people,but thats just human nature.
its not like once youre married/in a relationship, all attraction for everyone goes out the window,
it just doesnt work like that.