I like it when people give me attention so they will ask for something of me.

thats cool .

I also like how people pretend to listen to me.

that makes you a cool kid.


I'm just upset.
like, legitimately upset.

not pissed off, not irate, just upset.

Okay so I pms'd alot today.
Idk why the fuck I am bitching so much.


But Ashely and I had a great conversation.
She's an old soul. I love her.
Like I swear to God she keeps me sane and puts me on the right track
And she tells me not what I want to hear but what I need to hear.
And yeah

I should not start bringing back up old shit
No more regurgitating old shit to the surface.
All that shit is behind and I shouldn't reference then.
Because in living now

Why the hell my dog decided to wake me up at an in godly hour.
I don't know

Dog need Kath love, that's why.

Last night... I had a dream.
I feel somewhat guilty... but not really.
It was a very intense sexual dream.
Like we didn't do the dirty dirty, but it was all foreplay.
and I can honestly still feel it.
Like, I feel awkward around that person, even though he has no clue it was about him.

like, we were in a dark isolated room, and I couldn't see him.
But I felt his hands grab my waist, and I knew at that time, exactly what he was thinking.
it was so surreal.
like he hand both hands on my waist, and he started moving it, like I was grinding on him, but
not in a dirty club way, like in a passionate romantic way.
he was kissing my neck, touching me all over.
like,
It was so emotional.
the body on body.
lip on lip.
rotation of my hips
I felt his hands slowly dance their way on my body.
grabbing me, feeling me, loving me all at once.
my heart beat was racing,
every ending on my body was a live wire.
electricity.
i turned around
and he kissed me, I felt a spark, no a firework.
I was just letting him do what ever he wanted to me,
like I was his slave
but I love it.
I couldn't get enough.
It was like I was starving for his attention.
He slammed me against the cold wall, and pressed his lips against mine
and slowly took off my shirt and i felt his warm hands on my upper waist
It was as if he was hungry for me,
like in a sexual way.
I could tell he was fustrated and stressed for some reason.
he squeezed my skin harder.
and i could feel my long hair twirling around my face, just loose strands
in a very sexual manner, like resulting in that "come hither" look.
I played with the back of his neck.
tugging on his hair in a playful manner while our tounges motioned for each other.
with my long nails against his skin sending him shivers.
his hands slowly making its way down .
grabbing my ass and breathing deeply.
and he undresses me till I'm in complete lingerie.
he lifts me up and my legs are wrapped around his waist
and I am still pressed against the wall.
He's completely shirtless.
and Its so passionate.
I feel him start to make his hands up to my breasts,
and he squeezes, caresses, kisses, them.
soft pillows completely for his pleasure.
He starts to take off my bra and panties

THEN MY DOG WAKES ME UP AT AN UNGODLY HOUR
yeahh.

idk
watching jessie j makes me feel so emotional.

Mom comes home ... Through the front door, she normally comes through the back,
And she'd like wanna go out to eat ?

And my eyes light up like the stars.

I love going out to eat with my mother, like idk I just feel do at peace, do happy

I keep on having dreams that I'm being chased with a group of people.
It's pretty scary/adventurously. Or what ever.
Yeah.
So mom woke me up, to let me know she is bringing angel otto the dentist.
I feel so bad cause she is gonna have blood work done on her before she can get her teeth cleaned.
So I feel so bad, she hated that stuff.
So she got I. To the car expecting to go somewhere wonderful, but she is actually going
Somewhere To get pricked with needles /:

I know you wish you got your period at 7 am today like me right?

I know you wish that you got cramps, and in pain every 30 seconds.