11/20

I was offered a job 2 says ago at a private practice clinic that I interviewed at 2 weeks ago, and I've decided I am going to take that job and leave my current job at the county's mental health system.

For the first time in a long time, I can see the clouds split open ever so slightly, the sunlight trickling in.

12/01/2023

I conceptualize human existence as though we're in a baton race with one another, finding ourselves spawned into a world unknown and the baton the only thing to guide us (ie. language, culture, technology, healthcare, etc.) Part of this baton though includes social mores and worldviews, and I am both baffled and enraged that racism he been one of the social values that 1) Came into human history's existence at all, and 2) that it is still part of the baton we're now holding. Racism is not simply "bad". It is vile, abhorrent, and a literal social cancer that needs to be eviscerated from our species, by force if necessary.

12/04/2023

I do not like Samuel A. Cartwright (1793–1863).

12/09/2022

I've been putting the wrong year on some of my entries. Whoops!

PS. A partner is more likely to correctly attune to the emotional needs of their partner by providing something other than the "natural response" in moments where they open up to you about something emotionally vulnerable. If it is truly a "natural response", then your partner could have navigated that emotional journey with anyone because it is "the natural response". So, we may find ourselves utilizing well-intentioned strategies to console our partner that actually result in a bit of unintentional invalidation. These include a tendency to want to reassure our partner, disabuse them of any misconceptions or delusional, and supersede our own perspective and meaning in a feeble attempt to drown out the critical voice in their psyche that says they're feeling inadequate with our own voice. There is significance, then, in the fact that your partner (who knows what a "natural response" is likely to be if she were to open up to another human being) chose you of all people to lean on. Perhaps they're looking for something in this moment?

If so, what it is it? As people find themselves then stressing over the feeling of "Not knowing what to do or say" in moments like this, they may possibly find relief in simply asking their partner. "I'm here for you if you need anything".