Good evening everyone it's Johnathan, your pal Mr. overmyer.
I just wanted to first and foremost apologize for my behavior yesterday. I was a little bit out of line in my opinion. Not that I broke any rules because I always do my best to maintain proper post related content regarding my posts. And I didn't break any rules however what I am trying to say is I felt I was out of line because I sort of lashed out. And that is not me at all. I am not that kind of person.
I apologize for jumping the gun basically and claiming everyone was mocking me and being mean. Because I didn't give a chance to hear my friends opinions. I only let the haters,doubters, skeptics, naysayer bully trolls on here get to me.
So for my last topic yesterday when I reported to you all Ernie hit me and I basically come off as rattled and sort of anxious and hard on folks here. Well I apologize... I truly am sorry and I hope you can forgive me. Please understand I was in the heat of the moment. I was honestly in utter shock... I was BEYOND shook from this.I was crying immensely and had an accident, I leaked in my diaper and I felt ashamed of my self.... I felt traumatized and still sort of do... So please do understand what circumstances I was under.... My mental state and wrongly minded misjudgement got the better of me.
You know I love all of my friends on here. You guys truly rock. Please I implore you folks to always remember that. Perhaps you all can forgive me....
Well now that I got that out of the way let me get to my update.
Now as you all know I told you folks Ernie hit me yesterday, cursed very badly at me telling me he hated me. And then barricaded himself in his room. I was brought to tears from the emotional distress regarding this. And like I said I was going to call Gertrude despite the restraining order and I did. I called and Paulie picked up and Gertrude picked up on the other end as she heard him talking to me. We all had a three we conversation and I told Gertrude to come over here.
And she did she came right over within under half an hour. Ernie was still crying in his room. And Gertrude and Paulie were both there telling Ernie to open the door. My pets were all visibly shook as well. I took all of my pets and put them in the other room.
Ernie wouldn't open his room still despite Gertrude and Paulie now being there. So then Paulie began smashing the door with his fist and I screamed and leaked in my diaper again out of fright. And I pleaded with Paulie to please don't hurt Ernie I begged him and he said he would never do such a thing. And Gertrude said we have to break the door down because what if Ernie hurts himself. She kept saying Mommy is here honey please come out.
Paulie then broke the door off the hinges and it was hanging partially still because apparently Ernie put his large dresser to block him from getting in. The door is broken as well with holes. I will probably need a new door because Paulie hit it so hard it was basically shattered let alone not even on the hinges.
So Paulie Pushed the dresser over with all of his strength. And God bless that man. He is honestly one of the strongest people I have ever come across. I mean after all he is a bar brawler and boxer. Not to mention he lifts a lot of weights. I to this day think he takes steroids which was another reason I felt Ernie was in danger because of Gertrude and Paulie fights. But I have no proof of that.... Any way that is irrelevant.
Well let me get back to what happened. Ernie was crying in a corner and Gertrude ran in there and grabbed him and gave him a hug. And then Gertrude smacked him right in the face and said don't you ever hit your uncle John and say such things to him. And then she gave him another smack and then another and I said Gertrude stop please! And then Paulie grabbed her and said that's enough dear.
Ernie said he was so sorry and he loved me but it was the only way he could get to see his mom. He said he planned it all out. And he said he loved all of us and just wants us to be a big happy family living in the same home again.
And Gertrude then apologized for hitting Ernie and gave him a big hug and kiss. They embraced with love like a true mother and son. Then Ernie hugged me and told me his loves his Uncle John.
And as tough as Paulie may be he even had tears in his eyes.
I told Gertrude I was willing to drop the restraining order but she said no. She said she wants to finish her anger management and pass it So she can prove she is a strong
mother. Ernie now understands and is fine with it.
Before Gertrude left she said Ernie should always love me his uncle because I look out for that boy more than anyone. And Ernie says he knows and is truly sorry for hitting me and saying what he said.
So that is what happened and I talked to Gertrude this morning on the phone before she left for work and she is fine. She is looking forward to one day all of us living under the same room but right now she wants to prove herself as a worthy mother who isn't violent. Basically in her words....
Through all of this I still never told anyone other then you folks on here today that I had an accident and leaked diaper drenched last night. I don't think Gertrude, Paulie, or even Ernie knows I did this last night. They know I've had accidents before due to my severe IBS. But that is because of my disorder.
I felt if they knew I had an accident because of fear from all that happened then they'd have less respect for me. And that is not something I want so here I am getting that out in the open. I feel this is like a diary for me and I feel me telling you folks is basically the same as telling someone in real life. Because you all are people and I know a lot of my friends on here support me and get me through all of these emotional times. And I truly thank those of you for that.
Well I am pretty much done. I explained what I had to and furthermore I will ignore any haters from getting to me to the point that they make me feel like they are mocking me on here which would cause me to want to leave. Because honestly I felt like not logging on here today just to not have to deal with the trolls. But then I gave it some thought and pondered through my thoughts and I continued to think about my friends on here. You all know who you are and I love you all.
So I hope everyone had a good day and I hope not many folks were to worried about me. Just know everything is fine now.
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Sincerely, Johnathan Overmyer
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