recently I've had a Neverending stream of existential dread, fear of death
every second this eerie feeling doesn't leave my body, that nothing really matters
i used to be Christian and thought my actions matter, but then i saw roadkill
i see roadkill every day, I've seen hundreds of dead humans
but this particular roadkill was.... just there
and i realized: that's it
that's literally it
this animal is dead, forever
every fly I've swatted, it was over for them in that moment
their existence ceases
there is no heaven, no hell
just nothingness forever
Most people go through this as a kid