My highest bank value was 2.5, this last time I had 1.5 and wanted to get to 3. I chucked and lost. I also did win a 700 and held for about a week but that urge is insane. Tbow, Scythe, a FULL Scythe, Full inquisitors with mace, all jewelery, ancestrals, sara godsword, armadyl, dragon hunter lance, prims , ely, arcane spirit shield, Nightmarevstaff with Harm orb, imbued heart, bandos, dragon warhammer, cannon, 5m cannonballs, 2b cash for supplies to max and 100 sets for pking in max gear and lower setups, rc pet, max cape , all pets ? 201m all stats on all gamemodes? itll never end. shouldnt we be able to channel this passion into something we can share with out loved ones? I wont rant there. my point here is. even after having ALL of those items a max cape oh i forgot quest cape and all the other random shit in yhr game i didnt mention. I mean . Fuck Its a terribly increble game haha. I will probably never truly stop playing. Ive completely lost or forgotten how yo have a social life anywY. should I be okay with that? Fuck. You were always a good friend to chat with man I appreciate you brotha. Hope all is well out there. Its easy to say im positive all the time but im definitely not. each life is different though so mine couldn't possibly be the worst right? Its actually quite amazing out there. Ive been too pussy to do anything I really want cuz im afraid of what people think. Sometimes i hate myself for that. If im honest im too damn smart for my own good i wish sometimes i was an ignorant fuck that didnt care so i could just sit there and play 5 rs clients at once without losing my mind ovet it. holy shit . didnt exepct to do this to you. my apologies . Only person ive really talked to lately is my Dad and I cant lie i feel lonely as fuck and I dont know how to reach out to my few friends w it hout just blabbing too much about my life and seeming overly self absorbed . I try so hard to stay quiet sometimuues and sometimes I feel like im too quiet but im just afraid to get close to people because Ive burned so many bridges and just been fake . Puuuuuuke trxt