Basically I was a dumb ass and quiet possibly ruined the best thing that happened to me.
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If I ditched you, Why do I miss you?
The smell of your hair.. The taste of your lips, The feel of your hips
My jacket smells the same, as the day I picked you up
From the hell hole you were condemed in
I still have the pictures, the file with your name
The pictures of your sweets, and 'daddy' playing games
I threw it away, to lead a life destined to be empty and cold
A chance at true love, but my soul it seems, i've sold..
The fate I had was a wonderful life
But the card i've turned will leave me down a dangerous ride.
My clutch was you, Cayla and me
Now its alcohol and strange, believing the right one will be there on the next street
The streets that im touching brings nothing but bad luck
But at this point in time, i've decided to give up.
Until the next time we cross paths, im empty and cold
My heartless is crippled, and worthless ready to be sold.
Im trying to strangle out the pain, but it brings up the past
I want to start with the future, but that is involved with leaving the past.